Okay, here’s the deal...

My trust has been broken by many people in a plethora of ways – to the point where it’s not a matter of breaking my trust but earning it. When we first meet, please understand that I do not fully trust you. I will tell you my deepest secrets and pray that you take them to your grave. I will share my most vulnerable moments with you as my stomach churns – waiting for you to betray me. This persistent uneasiness is not due to any fault of your own but to that of your predecessors. Please don’t be upset with me.

Please don’t assume that I don’t think highly of you or believe that you are different than those who have come before you. I think you are fantastic in so many ways. I love you. I am so sorry for upsetting and offending you, I truly am. But I promise that in no way is it my intention.

I try so desperately to trust you – to trust everyone. Unfortunately, I just can’t. I cannot force myself to overcome the damage done to my heart and soul and I cannot become someone I am not. Please find it in yourself to forgive my flaws and please help me – not insult me or patronize me for being so broken. I am sorry. So, so sorry. I just trust differently. I don’t immediately trust you…… you earn the trust.

Please... try to understand…