I know life feels so hard right now. You’re wondering if you can keep going on everyday with this constant pain you are in. You keep weighing the options: staying here or escaping. You almost feel guilty for not feeling guilty about the decision you really want to make. You know in your soul how miserable you are, and there is no light left.
But there is. There is so much light left in this world for you. You bring so much light and happiness to those around you. Even though your brain is telling you that you don’t do that, no one likes you, and you’re just a pain for everyone, it’s not true. If you go, if you leave, you take away a piece of everyone with you.
This isn’t your only option, and right now it’s so hard to see that, I get understand. You have so much of a life you haven’t lived yet. This life we are all given is filled with opportunity, and you have it in you to make the most out of it.
Hearing someone say “it gets better” or “don’t do it” is annoying, I was there. I didn’t think life could get better, the darkness that surrounds you when you feel so low makes it seem like there is no way out. The only way to escape is by killing yourself…but that’s just not true.
Look at the sunset, listen to birds, go on a hike, swim in the open water, just observe the beauty of earth. Surround yourself by people you love. Find something that makes you smile, and whenever you do, write it down. Remember that something made you smile, something lit a spark within you.
You see, when you kill yourself you lose all of the beauty earth has, you lose the ones that mean the most to you, you lose those little things that make you smile. Everything is gone. And with you, earth is a little less beautiful. And those that love you are forever changed.
You have the strength in you to keep going, look at how far you have come already! Your story will be a powerful one of overcoming odds, and defeating the worst kinds of demons, the ones that live within you.
You have made someone smile and laugh. You have motivated people in one way or another. You matter. You are important. Talk to someone about these thoughts, don’t let them keep eating you alive.
Because if you don’t get help, if you don’t open up, and you decide enough is enough and you kill yourself…you took the cowardly way out. You didn’t just kill yourself, you killed off a piece of everyone around you. Anyone that knew you, anyone that loved you. You forever have changed your family, and your best friends. You became the talk of the town you live in. Everyone whispers about how tragic it was, how much potential you had, how they feel so sorry for your family. Everyone knows you could have done great things, they don’t understand why you did it. They ask how you did it, and if you left a note. They go to your funeral and try to express how sorry they are, but they can never tell someone sorry enough times to heal the wound you created when you killed yourself.
Everyone wishes you would have gotten help, they say “I wish I was there for them” “or “I wish they would have told me.” How could they have helped or been there if you never gave them the chance to be?
You have a life ahead of you. It doesn’t look like it right now, but I promise if you give it a chance, and you take the risk to live life to the fullest, you will never regret living.
