Dear You,
The one who has always deserved my love but has never received it,
I just wanted to say that I am so sorry.
I'm sorry for all those times I chose to give my love to someone else,
when I should have been giving it to you.
The times when I blamed you,
throwing insults at you like it was the only thing I knew how to do.
I'm sorry I spent so much time trying to change myself
for boys who couldn't care less.
When the only opinion that really mattered was yours.
Im sorry that I never accepted you for you,
Always wanting you to change and be something different
Always wanting you to be perfect
Hating you because you weren't.
I had so much anger and loathing directed at you
Constantly pointing out your flaws
Again and again
Letting the opinions of others influence my opinion of you
I am sorry for treating you like you are worthless
For punishing you for being who you were
And never giving you the loved you deserved
I am sorry I have spent so much of my life condemning who you are
No more though
Where I once saw weakness I now see strength
Where I once saw flaws I now see beauty
I should've loved you with the love I gave others.
Who I was is not who I am
Never again will I treat you as I once did
But that does not erase the past
All I can do to try to fix it is say:
Dear Me,
I just wanted to say that I am so sorry.