Dear Love,
I remember the very first time I ever laid my eyes upon you. I had never met you before but I felt as if I knew you my entire life. You seemed so familiar to me but our paths had never crossed before that day. Our friends, they were trying so hard to hook us up that night. I could tell you wanted to a little bit. But, if I would have hooked up with you that night I believe I would have never seen you again. Something I've never told you about that night is that I went into the bathroom and prayed to my grandma. I asked her for a sign on if I should pursue anything with you. I do that a lot actually, I talk to my grandma and ask her for guidance constantly.That night she followed through. You broke my phone charger that night, but I never said anything to you about it because I was too nervous. Of course my friend, she made sure you did not get away with breaking my charger and she messaged you telling you to bring me a new one. Two days later you brought me a new phone charger and that was the start of our amazing relationship.
Everything moved so quickly with you. Usually, I am afraid of change. I don't like change, not one bit and never have. But, with you I was never scared. I felt safe whenever I was with you. I didn't care about anything else going on in the world, as long as you were by my side nothing could harm me or scare me. You seemed to have a way with words because you convinced me all the time to try new things and step out of my comfort zone. Two days after us dating I met your family. Which to tell you the truth, I was so nervous. I was nervous because a parents approval means everything to me, primarily because family is everything. You assured me there was nothing to be nervous about. You were right, there was nothing to be nervous about because you have the most amazing family in the world. Sure, it might be "dysfunctional" (as you would say), but so is mine. Little did I know that within that short time of us dating your mom would become my confident. The woman that I trusted more than anything in the world. I could go to her about anything going on in my life and she'd be there, open arms, with no judgement. And your little sister, she reminded me of my little sister.I became very overprotective of her and still to this day am.
You brought out every single side of me. Sides of me no one else has ever seen before.To me, if someone can't see every side of who you are and what makes you well you, then they aren't the one for you. I'd like to think I saw every side of who you are. I've seen you extremely happy, angry, depressed, I've even seen you cry. It takes a lot for a man who doesn't really like to show his emotions cry. That is one of the reasons I fell in love with you. You were so vulnerable around me. You could be you and know that I would not judge you. I've never judged you and never will. I felt the same with you. I knew you'd never judge me,so I told you everything about my life from the very beginning. I've never opened up to anyone the way I opened up to you. You always convinced me to open up to you. You were able to tell when I was mad or upset, whenever anything was just off about me.Somehow, no matter how well I could hide it from the rest of the world, I could never hide it from you.
Most people think love is a bunch of pixie dust and roses but roses have thorns too. No matter how beautiful a rose is the thorns help make a rose. Same with relationships. Every relationship has it's thorns as well. And while the thorns are supposed to help build the relationship and make it stronger.Our thorns were petty, drunken arguments that to be honest should've been irrelevant to our relationship but in the end it led to our break up. When our relationship ended, I shut myself out from the rest of the world. I got very depressed and no longer felt like myself. I felt as if I had lost the greatest thing that ever happened to me and still do. Even though we aren't together anymore, you are always on my mind and in my heart. You brought out the best in me and for that I couldn't thank you enough. You've helped me discover who I am and my potential in this world. I am always here for you whenever you need me and you know that. Whenever you call I will always answer. I will love you forever and always.
