It's happened to the best of us...
We've all had those almost relationships that leave us feeling unworthy of love. Unfortunately every girl feels it eventually, the heartbreak done by a guy that didn't feel the need to make it official "just yet." These type of situations always leave you feeling unwanted with a lot of unanswered questions.
What did I do wrong? What could I have done better? Why did you lead me on if we weren't going anywhere, and last, but not least, why didn't I see this coming?
You made me feel worthless. If there's one thing I know for sure, it's that you were good at making me feel unworthy of your time and effort. I was only good enough when you had no one else, and sadly, back then, that was good enough for me. I loved being your number one go to, and you knew it. I would pick you up whenever you needed me to because at least I was something in that moment. Unfortunately for me though it never lasted every long, sooner or later I was back to nothing all over again.
You got my hopes up. As soon as I mentioned something about getting tired waiting on you to make it official you'd find a way to make me stay. "Just a little longer," you'd say, but sadly that "little longer never came. It was like I was a puppet and you, the puppeteer. After a while you stopped considering the possibility of us ever becoming something more, and you know that almost as well as I do. At the time, I just didn't want to believe it.
You were a complete waste of my time. I guess the worst part of this is that I was falling for you, and you were never that sure about me. Everything you said, every future plan you made that I was apart of, were just empty promises. I'm lucky enough to know that now.
In all honesty, I've wanted to hate you for the longest time, but I could never bring myself to do it. Trust me I've tried. I have gone through every negative feeling you have ever given me, but I guess it's true when they say: the positive outweighs the negative because all I can do is thank you.
Thank you for showing me that I deserved so much more than you were willing to give. I'm a better person than I was when I was invested in our almost relationship, and for that I am extremely proud, I now know the difference between words and actions and how important it is to put your words into actions. I also know how I deserve to be treated and I've moved on, and I'm so happy to know you're happy as well. I guess what I'm trying to say is, thanks for wasting my time because, in the end it wasn't a waste, not even at all.
