I totally get it, I get scared too. But I cannot imagine ever acting the way you did to another person. Leading someone on is a cruel, cruel game and I do not wish to be anyone's pawn.
What I truly wanted you to see was that I would have been there for you, even when things got really bad. I would have watched the basketball game with you, and actually called bullshit on the ref. I would have stayed in and ordered a pizza and drank beer with you even if we had plans to go to some fancy restaurant. I would have cared, more than anyone else would have.
I just wish you could have seen the potential. You just got scared because you caught feelings. It is typical, I guess I should have seen it coming but it still sucks.
I do not have a magic crystal ball that will tell me whether we would have ended up together or not but I do know that we will now never find out. I deserve to be happy, but I'm not waiting around for an apology. Love is not spending forever with someone. Love is choosing to be happy with that person every single day.
I hope someone reads this and decides not to give up quite yet.