You know who you are:
I don't know if you realize it but the things you do break people down. Make people feel worthless. Make people lose trust. Make them lose all the confidence they have in themselves. You cannot say the things you say to someone and expect to "just be friends." You cannot say one thing and mean something completely different. You and your charm make girls fall so hard. Yet instead of catching her as she falls, you laugh as she hits the floor. It is almost as if every tear she cries fuels your life. Like it is a fire that you want to burn endlessly. I have never understood how heartless people can be at times.
Literally every single text you sent me telling me you couldn't wait to see me, that I was beautiful, that you could see yourself dating me, that I was the person that made you happy was all a lie. You did not mean it. Maybe you did for a minute but you continued to make me think that we would be something. You continued to tell me the lies and kept me on a leash. You and your stupid smile had me so fooled. You are the reason I think every single boy is going to be that way. And do you have any idea how unfair that is? Because most of them aren't. But stupid you drilled this fear in my head that everyone I open up to is just going to walk away just like you did. They are going to say I won't be that person but then be just that. You make me think that as soon as I fall for someone that they are going to say "I dunno maybe we should be just friends".
Well, news flash to you I don't want to be just friends. How the hell do you expect me to be friends with you if all I want to do is win your heart. How do you expect me to look at your amazing smile, and look into your eyes and not break every time that I leave because I remember that it is all just in my head? How do you live with yourself knowing that I feel the way I do and you are the reason I do. You told me all the lies and you know it too. How can you just do that to someone? Do you want to know the crappiest part about all of this? It is that you don't have any way to explain yourself. You just "changed your mind."
To be honest, with you I don't really think you ever actually had the thought in your mind at all. I was just another girl to use until you found someone different or got tired of me. Well, guess what? You might not be tired of me and you might not have found that next girl, but I am tired of you. I am tired of wondering what I did. I am tired of yearning to know why I am not enough. Because I am more than enough. I am more than you ever deserved.
Next time you want to use a girl just remember she might end up using you and you will get to feel the pain.
