It took me a long time to write this, but here it is.
Dear you,
The first time I met you was three years ago. You were sitting alone and I decided to introduce myself because I had a gut feeling that you and I would become best friends. It didn’t take long for us to start hanging out. You would call me to hangout and grab donuts, even though sometimes I was tired I didn’t care because I would sacrifice my sleep for you since hanging out with you was always fun. You introduced me to your friends and to your beautiful family who were nothing but sweet to me. The more we hung out, the more I thought of you as my older sister. Sleeping over at your house was always fun. We would talk for hours and when we got hungry we would go and grab something to eat at 1:00 am. I lived for those moments that will never come back.
We had plans on traveling the world together, but nothing lasts forever.
You were the one I could be myself around because you wouldn’t judge me. I would tell you my dreams and goals because I wanted you to be part of them.When you graduated from college I was very happy for you. I wanted to be part of your life and see you accomplish all your goals.
As time passed by it was hard for us to hangout out, but we didn't let that stop us from keeping in touch. We arranged a girls night out. I was very excited to see you again, but I guess you weren't.
I hadn't been out to a club for awhile and decided to have a couple of drinks before going into the club because drinks are expensive inside.
As we were getting closer to the entrance, the bouncer didn’t let me go inside. He said, “Sorry, you’re too drunk to go in.”
He told me to get out of the line and I was standing beside the bouncer like a total loser. People were probably thinking why did she even drink if she can’t hold her alcohol. The bouncer let everyone go inside, including you.
I was hoping you would stay by my side and have the courtesy to take me home. Maybe if I told the bouncer you were my ride home, he might have brought you back outside.
You didn’t even turn to look and check on me. Who knew a DJ was more important than your friend.
I didn’t have anyone to call and ask for a ride. I was not scared to call an Uber driver in the state that I was in.
I didn’t know what else to do so I sat on the curb on a windy Friday night. While you were having the time of your life. You didn’t care that your friend was at a higher risk of getting kidnapped or raped.
You just didn't care.
You would send me texts saying that the bouncer wouldn’t let you go outside, but the truth was you didn’t want to.
The last message that you sent me read, “ Hope you find a ride.”
It was the last thing you said to me.
I felt disgusted reading it because you should never do that someone you call a friend. I was scared and alone in the streets of downtown. I needed you the most that night, but you let me down.
It took two kind strangers to offer their help to take me back home. 'Till today I’m thankful that god put these wonderful people in my path because I wouldn’t know where I’d be if it wasn’t for them.
I was crying and blaming myself that maybe I wasn’t good enough for you. Maybe you needed cooler friends to be around.
I was waiting for you to call and say you're sorry, but you never did. That hurt me the most.
As I look back now, I realize you didn’t know how to appreciate me in the end. I hope one day you wake up and regret losing a girl who never asked for anything in return, just your friendship. I want to say thank you for opening my eyes. I know what I don’t want in a friendship.
Maybe you had your reasons for doing what you did even though you had to end a beautiful friendship with me.
I wish you the best in life.
Sincerely,
The girl who trusted you.
