Dear You,
It breaks my heart to see how you view yourself, as a disaster of a person, a hurricane of a girl. Once loving so wildly; carefree and selfless, giving out love like you were made of it. Until him. Until all of them. One after another taking your love and kindness for granted, using you, until you slowly began to feel like you would never have someone. Until you began to feel like maybe you didn't deserve that love, that you just weren't the type of girl that guys fall in love with. Deciding that you didn't need them and closing yourself off from the possibility of rejection. Branding yourself as hard to love, as undateable.
I am here to tell you that, it's not true and that I'm so sorry that they stole that part of you. You are not hard to love, you are not a disaster or a hurricane. You are a goddess, something wonderful, powerful, and staggering.
"You are terrifying and strange and beautiful something not everyone knows how to love" - Warsaw Shire.
I know that you are the type of girl who loves in an all or nothing type of way, loving with your entire heart or not at all. Not everyone is going to appreciate you and love you in the way you deserve to be loved and that's alright.
There are people who deserve you and there are people that don't. There will be people who will find you most beautiful on your worst days and people who love the things that others saw as reasons to leave. And I'm not saying you need them because trust me when I say I know you are the girl that doesn't need anybody but herself, but I want you to know that you don't need to be alone. You are not an unlovable girl, so flawed that no one will stay once they get to know you. You are worthy of love and should be loved exactly as you are.
Sincerely
Someone Who Understands