I'm sure this is a hard topic for anyone to read, or even have a conversation about, if you are affected. Whether it be emotional or physical abuse, I want you to know that you are not alone.
Sadly, there are many young women that are affected by this, by a boyfriend, husband, or family member.
In that moment, I'm sure you felt alone, that no one was there to hear your screams, because in reality your cries were coming from within. I'm sure you felt scared, asking yourself why you weren't strong enough to break free from this toxic relationship.
But whether you chose to believe it now or later, you are not alone and you are not weak. When it is your time to reach out, there are many people who will hear and understand your cries.
Personally, it took me a couple of years to come out and get the help that I needed. It was as if I blocked out the abuse to just keep myself sane. But during those years I struggled greatly. I cried many nights, pushed away loved ones, and could not fathom trusting myself. I thought because I did not break free and defend myself that I was weak. I thought because I did not fight back, or say just as hurtful words, that I was less than him. And I wanted him to see what I wished him to see. I wanted him to see that I cared, that I loved him. Although now I know that I did not love him. Those were my insecurities speaking, all the things I truly wished I wasn't. But now, three years later, I'm reaching out to those who are in the same place that I was in.
I am not capable of writing something that will all of a sudden make you realize you are more than what he makes you feel. But I am trying to write something that will make you feel a little bit less alone.
Abusive relationships happen to be one of those things that will never vanish from this earth.
Emotionally abusive relationships can hurt just as much as physically abusive relationships -- one just shows on the outside. Words cut just as deep as a punch. A punch cuts just as deep as the words being screamed at you.
To the ones that are affected by loved ones abusing them, I cannot say I am sorry and believe it be enough. I cannot say you will be OK tomorrow, or the day after. But maybe in one or two years you will be able to open up to someone on what happened to you and feel as if a brick has been lifted from your chest.
You will be able to feel like you can spread your wings and fly again.
Strength comes from within us; it cannot be taken away or added to. One must truly believe they have the power to fight against their injustices.