Dear Former BFF,
Sometimes I ask myself how we even got to where we are today.
How did we go from talking every day, from talking hours on the phone and constantly texting each other to not having any sort of communication at all? I remember every single moment we ever spent together. I remember the day we met, I knew from that from that moment on we would be friends. I also remember all the promises we made, all the things we said we would do together in the future, how we would become old together, all the things we told each other; I remember even the tiniest things and it’s sad that we’re not best friends anymore.
Sometimes I see and hear things that remind me of you and I wonder how you’re doing, where you are and who you’re with. I wonder if you’re happy, if you’re still chasing your dreams and if you still think about me occasionally like I think about you.
I guess what happened was I eventually realized that you had some priorities in your life and that I wasn’t one of them. I still don’t understand how you took me for granted or how you weren’t able to realize that I was the friend that cared and loved you the most. I don’t want you to think I resent any of it, I just don’t understand it.
We both always called each other cute things, we gave each other so many titles and nicknames and we had one too many inside jokes and now its just like they never existed because we have no one else to ever share them with.
Every now and then I ask myself if one of us is ever going to take the initiative and text or call the other one. I also wonder if we will ever meet again. Will we ever bump into each other and say hello awkwardly? How am I even going to ask you how you’re doing when its something we never did in our friendship because we knew everything about each other? All I know is that I will be happy to see you and I hope you will be happy to see me too.
I haven’t heard about you at all and in a way I wish I did, I wish I knew at least how you’re doing and the reason for that is that I still care about you like I did when we were friends. I don’t even know if you will read this but I hope you do because this is my way of saying thank you. Thank you for all the memories and the good times, thanks for being there for me when I needed you, thanks for letting me cry on your shoulder and vent about even the dumbest things. Thanks for everything because even though we don’t talk anymore, we used to do it and I will never forget about all the wonderful memories we shared. I think you know that if you ever need me again, I will always be willing to help you, even if it is tomorrow or years from now.
The last thing I want to say is an official goodbye, I never got a chance to do it before because I never thought I wouldn’t talk to you anymore but time has proved that it is that way. I hope you’re doing well now and I wish you nothing but the best for the future. Everyone serves a purpose in our lives and I’m happy to know that you served your purpose in mine just like I served my purpose in yours.
XOXO,
Your Former BFF