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An Open Letter To My Past Self

Hey Past! I think it is time to finally talk!

Tamesha Benson
Mar 13, 2017
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Dear Past Me,

I just wanted to let you know I am not afraid of you anymore. I am not spending another night losing sleep over you. I won’t let you dictate my life anymore. I won’t allow you to make me hurt people I care about. I won’t let you push the people I love away. I won’t allow you to make me beat myself up. I know better now because of you but who I am and becoming is because of me and what I choose. So, starting today I choose me! I choose to see the good in the bad. I choose to forgive the ones who hurt me. I choose to wake up and thank God that I get another chance to make it right. I choose to fight despite everything I been through.

Past me, you made me miss out on so much. You made me stand up tall and deal with some of the things that I allowed to tear me down. You made me forgive my dad for all the pain. You help me see my depression as a beautiful thing. You made me come to terms with the fact that not everyone can come with me to where God is taking me. You made me grow up! So, for that, I am truly grateful.

Past self, you helped me love the little things and never take them for granted. You helped me get a sense of adventure. Are there times I “thought” I wanted to go back? Yes! But I know now that to go back would only hurt me. The past is the past and we can only make learn from it. Past me, we will not choose to make others happy while we suffer. We will not allow people to talk to us any way they feel like. We will fall deeper in love with Christ. We want to be so scared of life. We will spend every day being thankful to have the people we do have.

Past me, you will not let me doubt myself. You will not tell me I am not good enough. Christ is in me, I am enough. You will not make me think less of myself because other people are doing. Past...I am enough. I am smart, driven, passionate, hard-working, humble, strong, and wise, and nothing you can save can change that.

Finally, past self I chose to love me! I chose to pick me when everything goes wrong. I chose to always remember God chose me! God loves me! God knows my past and he still loves me! God is a right now God and because of that, I am who I am because of who he is! So, the to the past me; this is where you’re staying! You are staying in the past! I love you but I can not take you with me! I am moving forward to what God has for me. I will be free!



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