Hey.
It's me. I know that you've been hiding, not from him, but from how you feel about the whole thing.
Even though it's been almost a year, you continue to distract yourself with friends and school, but there is something there, in the back of your mind, that you cannot ignore.
The stress, memories, even just the thought of him make you sick, and that is totally okay. You need to know that you should never feel like it is your fault.
Do not look at is as this as a negative event in your life, look at it as something that has happened and grow from it.
You, my love, are such a strong young woman. You did more than most people have; you told someone.
For most, all they want is to be heard, but the fear of losing their past life, friends and reputation haunts them out of it.
You stood up. You did that because you are not afraid. Yes, friends were lost and peers were inconsiderate, but there were so many positives that followed.
You went out of your comfort zone and joined a sorority which added some incredible sisters to your list of close friends, your relationship with your professors will forever be strong, and last, you, as an individual, grew into this beautiful, intelligent, and brave adult.
Your parents are so proud of you, your close friends are always there to support you, and with such a strong foundation, you will go far because you speak up when it is necessary.
And last, please stop calling yourself a victim. You are a survivor.
Don't ever let anyone think of you or treat you any less. Do not be ashamed of someone else's actions.
You made it through. You are here today with your head up and a positive attitude. After your fearless actions, I have no doubt in my mind you will go far in this life you have here, and you, my love, will continue to thrive.
Sincerely,
Yourself.