Let me start off by saying that I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for my flaws and I’m sorry for not being perfect. I’m sorry that I am not the best cook and that I can get jealous sometimes. I’m sorry that I can be a bit clumsy and a little stubborn. I’m sorry that my past relationships have left you with my broken heart and these walls that I have built up. And I really am sorry that you have to be the one to pick up the pieces for me.

But I really do want to say that I honestly cannot wait to meet you.

Ever since I was a little girl, I always said that I want the boy I marry someday to be just like my father. Funny, charming, goofy - but most importantly - someone who puts his family before anything else.

If there is one thing I could ask of you, it would be that. Putting your family above any materialistic thing this world has to offer. My hope is that someday you will look at me with the same passion that my father looks at my mother with. Just that look in itself is something special.

I do pray about you all the time.

I pray that you’re doing well in school right now and that you’re doing okay mentally. That all of the pressures of this world aren’t weighing you down and that overall you are just happy. I pray for the memories that we will make someday, and honestly, I am so excited for what God has in store for us.

I’m not saying it’s going to be totally perfect and flawless. We’re going to have challenges and obstacles to face, and days where our patience gets tested. There are going to be arguments and times when we feel like we’ve hit rock bottom.

But along with those challenges and obstacles, there are also going to be the good times, too.

I can’t wait to share all kinds of laughs and memories with you. I can’t wait to do the little things like staying up until 3 a.m. talking about life and having times where we can just relax and watch movies all day. I can’t wait to have a family with you and be able to figure out the parenting life together. I really cannot wait to grow old with you.

I know I have a long time until I’ll have you as a husband; after all, it could be a long time until I even meet you. But I really am looking forward to it and all the good things to come with it.

So, to my someday husband... I can’t wait to build our own little fairytale.