I know I am only 20 years old, but I am looking for something real, something true. I don't plan on wasting my time. I'm so sick of the "talking" phase that leads to nowhere.

To my next love,

You should know that I do not love easily. In fact, I have only been in love with someone once. I really don't understand those who are my age who have been in love more than 2 times already. It just does not make sense to me. Knowing that I do not love easily, please do not take that lightly. Be gentle with my heart, I do not give it away easily.

You should know that I promise to love you with every fiber of my body. I will love you to the very core of my being. My love for you will be able to move mountains. I know that may seem like a lot, but I have always wanted to be loved with a love that could light every light bulb in the world at once. Because I want this kind of love, I will give it to you, however I will not demand it in return. Although I am young I understand that you are only able to give me as much love as you can, not as much as I want.

Even though I promise to love you, know that I refuse to change certain things about myself. Love can change you for the better, but it can also change you for the worse. Even though I will love you with all that I have know that I will not give up who I am in the process.

Love doesn't end, but relationships do. If there ever comes a day that ours does I do not want to be left with just a sliver of who I am. I want to be me. I NEED to be me. If you leave I will only have myself to pick up the pieces again. That is extremely difficult to do when you only have a hand and a bum leg. Likewise, I do not expect you, nor do I want you to lose yourself in the process of loving me. I've had to pick up my pieces before with not much to start with. I would hate to see you do the same.

To the next guy that loves me, I hope you are very patient. I may be very wise beyond my years, but I am still young. I still act childish, to be honest I still eat cookies for dinner on occasion. More than that, I do not let people in easily. I can count on one hand the amount of people I have let in and gotten close enough to, that they could explore the deep caves within my mind and heart. I do not like being vulnerable, but for you I promise I will try.

To the next guy I love, I promise I will be the best thing that has ever happened to you. I promise to engage your heart. mind, and soul. I promise to support you and to love you even when it is difficult. Most importantly, I promise I will never stop trying.

Love,

Your Future Love