Dear Future Wife,
How are you doing? I hope you’re doing fantastic. If not, I certainly wish I could come to you right now and comfort you.
I don’t have any idea if we’re just miles apart, or nations apart. Nonetheless, I find relief that you don't need me right now, and there’s a reason behind that. You are a strong woman – I know you’ll get through it.
I’ve been thinking a lot about you lately, and I wonder:
What do you look like? What do you like to do? I wonder what your dreams and passions are. I wonder what struggles you’re going through. I wonder what makes you cry, even though the thought of you crying breaks my heart. I wonder what makes you happy ‘cause I’m thrilled to soon play a part in that.
I wonder what you’re doing as I write this. I wonder if you think about me, too.
You see, God is the one who calms me down whenever I encounter these thoughts. He always tells me, “Be patient, my son. You’ll find her at the right time.” I am also reminded that my satisfaction is found in Him alone, and not on any person or thing. Then I’ll be at peace. With that said, I’ve talked to God about you many times – asking Him to guide and protect you in every way, and give you the strength to endure when you feel like giving up. And that’s the only thing that I could do right now – entrust you to Him.
If you’re wondering how I’m doing, I’d be lying if I say everything is going well. A lot of things are going on.
So I have to tell you (and please don’t get me wrong): but you are not my priority right now.
God is still grooming me to be the man that He wants me to be for you, so when the right time comes, I’ll be perfect for you. I’ll graduate college first, work, save money, be stable and then that’s it – I will find you and I will pursue you. You can bet on it.
But for now, I will wait. We will wait. There is a time for everything. As Brooke Fraser’s song goes, “When it’s time to walk that way, we wanna walk it well.”
We will not rush love and potentially ruin something great. As much as I want to fast forward everything and just be with you now, there is beauty in the waiting. We learn things in the waiting and we grow in the waiting. Each passing moment sets and primes us for that glorious meeting – our meeting – and that’s what makes it worth it. You are worth it.
I’ll keep praying for you – for us. But I will put God first in everything, and as I do that, everything will fall right into place.
For the time being, I’ll be singing to strangers about you.
With the purest love,
Your Future Husband
P.S. "Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." - Song of Solomon 8:4
