Skylar,
I will never forget the day that I received a text that changed my life completely. My heart fell into my stomach, while my mind was trying to process what I just read. I was babysitting that afternoon and let me tell you...trying to keep my composure was extremely hard. I jumped onto Facebook to see if this was actually true.
Did I really just lose my best friend? The article of the accident popped up on my newsfeed. After I clicked on it, my entire body went numb. My hands were shaking while tears were streaming down my face. I remember just falling to my knees saying, “Why God? Why?”
I remember just a few days prior on face time with you just laughing. We would always call each other randomly and talk for hours about absolutely everything. The memories that we made over the past five years will always be close to my heart. From the nightly trips to lady A, the beach trip to Beaufort and staying up till three in the morning playing cards, and the multiple times when we were upset about some guy. You were always there.
It’s still hard for me to wrap my mind around all of this. I think learning to live without you is by far the hardest. In about two weeks, it’ll mark three months without you. It still hasn’t hit me yet that you’re gone and I honestly don’t know when that time will come. Skylar, you weren’t just my best friend, but you were my person. My body literally aches at the thought of never seeing you again. It is the worst kind of pain that I’ve known.
However, I want to take this time to thank you. Thank you for always answering your phone even if it was three in morning and I was crying over a stupid boy. Thank you always laughing with me until there was tears streaming down our faces. Thank you for always giving me the best advice and always reminding me to always do my best. Thank you for being my best friend.
I might not be able to see you anymore, but I know that you still have my back. I might not be able to hear you, but I listen to the signs from above that give me reassurance that you’re still around. I believe that you left this world to soon. Your funeral was by far one of the most emotionally draining things that I have ever had to experience. I didn’t want to say goodbye and I knew that I had too. I still grieve for you till this day, but I know that you are having the time of your life in Heaven playing volleyball and loving on all of the cute Boston terrier puppies. You will forever be in my heart and I look forward seeing you again my guardian angel.
Love always,
Your Best Friend
