Hi there, handsome,
As I watch you leave my sight, nothing crushes my heart more than you leaving for New York. After spending six moths apart, I realize that I need you in my life forever. Being away from you is suffocating; I feel lost and alone without you by my side and as I watch all the couples around me in the airport, the feeling only intensifies. When people told me that distance makes the heart grow fonder, I didn’t understand what they meant by that. Now, I do.
There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you, that I don’t long for you. I miss you each and every day that we are apart. We could be talking for hours over Skype, but it doesn’t matter, I still miss being by your side and feeling the warmth coming off your body. I miss lying in your arms as we watch movies, eat pizza or scroll through Instagram looking at corgis. Once you give me one last wave and disappear from my sight completely, I feel my entire heart crumble as I miss you more than ever. The short time we’re together just barely makes up for the time that we’re apart.
It sounds selfish, I know. But as I watch you walk away in the airport, I can’t help but think of all the things we could do together if we had a little more time. We could go see movies at the movie theater, go out to dinner, hang out with friends or just be surrounded by the love we have for one another. I just want to reach out to you and hold your hand one last time or kiss your lips to show you how much you mean to me until you’re gone for another six months. The hardest part about it all is that I can’t hold you for hours and tell you what I want to tell you. We only have a short amount of time to rekindle our love through rushed actions as we try to do everything possible with what little time we have to the two of us.
As I watch your plane depart, I am filled with mixed emotions; I’m beyond happy because I had you in my life once again, but sad because you had to leave my side. Though you were with me for a short time, it filled the void in my heart left by you when we parted way back in July. Now that you’re gone to New York again, that void is back and it can’t be fixed until we are together once more. It sounds dramatic, but it’s true. The crazy thing is that I’m beyond happy to cry again in another six months when you leave for New York again. I’m willing to put myself through the pain of missing you because you’re the most important person in my life: you’re my soulmate and you’re something worth waiting for.
Not many people understand why we do what we do. They always tell me that I should find someone closer to home. What they don’t understand though, is that you are my home. You are my everything. You’re the only one that understands what I go through every day because you’re fighting the distance with me. Other couples think we are crazy for dating when we are 590 miles apart. I guess only the strong can make it through the distance, and that is exactly what we are. The distance has made not only our hearts stronger but ourselves.
This relationship isn’t easy by any means, but I am willing to fight for us as long as you will let me. I’m so proud of how far we’ve gotten and what we’ve overcome. Though we’ve fought a lot over the two years we’ve been dating, we’ve made ourselves a stronger couple because we know how to talk through our problems instead of pushing them aside. It’s made us independent, and yet, dependent on each other when we really need it. I know that you’ve put up a lot with me and I’ve gotten over everything you’ve thrown at me, but that’s what makes us, us. We don’t have it easy, but our life isn’t as hard as we make it out to be. Our relationship is possible because we care enough about each other.
As I sit alone in my quiet room and wait for you to text me, I can’t help but think that if I have to fight with one person for the rest of my life, I want to fight with you. Fighting with you means that you’re still mine and I promise that I’ll never stop fighting for you. The only thing keeping me going through all of this is knowing that our love will get us to where we want to go one day: a home in each others’ arms. I’m counting down until that day eventually comes and I promise you that I will stay strong until that day finally arrives.
Love always and forever,
