I spent a lot of time after our separation wondering what went wrong. I felt a quiet resentment towards you, but I still projected a loyalty, as if you were gonna return like nothing had happened.

You know what? I gave my friendship our all. I cried when you told me you were moving, even though you hardly had the decency to send it in a text. I made it a goal to say goodbye. I got you gifts that we once shared fondly between us. I celebrated our friendship, but now I realize that I can hardly call it that.

When I finally had the balls to ask why we had stopped being friends, when I had to ask one of our few common friends, your reason snapped at and stung me like a whip. As if I could be a backstabber, as if everything you did to me meant nothing. You never displayed a loyalty to me, and I bet it hurt when it felt like you'd lost my loyalty. I hope it did.

Now I understand who you are, as a person and as a friend. People, to you, are disposable once they serve you no purpose. You claimed to "have no friend group", but really you just wanted to climb the social ladder until you couldn't reach any higher. You squished and abandoned people in the process, sparring those who would give you success in the long run.

Remember when I lost my first love? Remember how sick I was, how empty and broken I was? I was dumb to think that your dreams of "doing" his best friend were supposed to be consoling to me. And I remember how you stopped sitting with me in assemblies. I made eye contact with you as you sat next to them. But God forbid I let my ruined relationships deprive you of having "friends".

And did it hurt when he cheated on you? Didn't it sting to see your "friend" cultivate their friendship with him afterwards? I'm not bitter anymore, I'm just confused what justifies your actions and not mine. And, at what point in our friendship did you most pride yourself of being so considerate?

This open letter might be so direct, but I know these are friendships that are built and ruined every day. I hope I can make an example out of you, I hope someone sees a toxic friendship before it's too late.