Brock Turner,

Let me start off by saying as a young female on a college campus, I am more afraid now more than ever because of your case. It shouldn't be that way. I shouldn't have to feel my nerves take control when I see a group of young men going across campus to their respective dorms when I get back to campus after going out with friends and it's dark out. I shouldn't have to clutch on to my pepper spray just to feel safe. Because of your case, it's this way. Not just for me but for other young women out there on campuses everywhere.

I am sure that your parents, family, teachers, coaches, classmates, friends, neighbors, upcoming professors and coaches had expected nothing but the best from you while attending Stanford. I'm sure like any typical high school student, you did some things you weren't proud of but lied to protect your reputation. The truth has a funny way of coming to light when you least expect it though..

January 18, 2015. A date forever marked that you, the survivor and the world will never forget.

On that night, a young woman, twenty-two years of age to be exact, went to a party with her younger sister. She, like many of the others at the party, drank. She danced. She was a normal twenty-two year old female having some fun. Something made you go over to her. You told the others you were taking her upstairs so she could sleep it off and no blinked an eye nor did you attempt to find her sister or have another female go with you to ensure she was safe. However, no one knew you were the dangerous, big bad monster who would soon be the villain of her nightmares.

You took her outside, behind a dumpster and sexually intruded her body. Who knows what would've happened if the two Swedish men on their bicycles hadn't come and saw this heinous act. I hate to even think of it but all that pops into my mind when I think about the negative part of the whole ordeal is, would you have stopped? Would you have continued to desecrate her body? Would she still be alive? The weather that night would would've caused enough damage and by the way you left her, it wouldn't have been long before she passed. Or what if you snapped and became afraid that she might remember your face, name or a small detail that cause you to go to jail -- longer than you actually served -- and you decided to play God? Thankfully, the two men came up and caught you committing this crime and helped save her while you ran like a coward.

After the case, all of learning all of the heartbreaking details, the judge only sentenced you to six months. S I X M O N T H S. That's one hundred and eighty days in jail. Your family, friends and a former girlfriend wrote letters to judge asking for lighter sentence and not punish you harshly or severely. In fact your dad, who is just as disgusting as you are made the statement that you are, "Paying heavily for twenty minutes of action." Every time those words play out in my mind, I get sick. How can a parent say that about another person who survived a traumatic and life-altering attack only to hear those words after a poor excuse of a sentence? It isn't right.

Brock, what if you had a daughter the same age as the young woman you attacked and she was having to go through the same things that this young female has had to endured and will have to endure, not only know but in the future and in all reality, for the rest of her life. How you feel if the father said the things your father did when it came to sentencing? How would you react? Would you be outraged? Upset? Hurt? What would you do?

I'm sure that before all of this, you were a good guy who wanted to do a lot with his life. I'm sure you had plans and goals for your post-college career and who knows, maybe go to grad school or do something to make a change in your career field that would possibly change the world. I'm sure that you could've gone far with your swimming career. Who knows what would've happened if you had acted on your impulses and did what you did that night? How differently things would be..it's a bit of a strange thought now, wouldn't you say?

I have seen your mug shot(s), the meme(s), all sorts of photographs of you. The most recent being you getting released from jail, dressed nicely in a dark pants and button down shirt while holding onto your suit jacket in the other arm. Face down with sad, hurt, terrified expression. The media capturing your every move and now protesters outside your home with signs and chalk outlines letting people know that you are a rapist and curious if they give you the same punishment as you did the young woman, will they too, get three months for the crime? Students at graduation this past May at Stanford held signs, stating this simple fact : "RAPE IS RAPE".

Rape has nothing to do with culture -- whether it's what you raised in or a part of college campus life. Rape is the attacker wanting to have complete power and control over the other person. In 2014, 79,00 rapes occurred. Only 30-40% of rapes are reported each year while only 3% of rapists only ever spend time in prison. Rape is ONE of the hardest crimes to prosecute. Why? The victim refuses to speak out against their attacker for fear of backlash and how they will be viewed in the media. It is heartbreaking and senseless. Many times the victim is blamed for the actions of the attacker -- most notably saying it was what the woman was wearing or how she acted at the party (i.e. drinking, dancing or hanging around men acting "flirty") rather than blaming the male for his actions. However if a male is raped, whether by a female or another male, no one ever speaks out about it because a man "can't get raped".

Rape knows no gender. No sexuality. No race. No age. It does not know our family. Our friends. Our daily routines. Our life or what we've experienced or what our future holds for us. Our plans. Rape does not define you as a person or as a human being. It does not define your future or where you go or what you do. It is not your identity. You are not a victim,you are a SURVIVOR.

Brock, what you did was indescribable. It is something that will stay with us for years to come -- especially those at, going or planning on attending colleges across the world. It will people give those men at parties or walking on campus a second look while clutching their phones or pepper spray while en route back to their car or dorm or whatever location they may be. Your case was a miscarriage of justice but maybe now you are finally seeing what 'tough' time would have been like if you had received the maximum sentence that others have gotten in the same case as you. I wish that you had made the news for something else rather than this crime.

I genuinely feel sorry for you and the life you have to live now. It won't get any easier for you by any means nor will it for your loved ones. This is something I would not wish on anyone nor their family. I hope that someday you are able to find some sort of peace with yourself. I know the survivor was able to do so and I'm sure it was hard but at the end of the day bitterness will eat you alive and force you to give up a good life.

You stated something about speaking up about your crime and what you did wrong to others and for the most part, that would do some good to help end the rape culture that is trending on campuses and across states everywhere but I recommend that you admit to your faults and not place blame on the victim or use any of the terminology that was used on the impact letters read aloud in court for your sake of a sentence. Maybe use the one that your survivor wrote. All 7,000 plus words. Speak at high schools and college campuses. Speak of the dangers that come along with drinking and not having someone be there for someone who may be in danger of getting attacked. I hope you use this as a way to do some good with your life and find a way to help others. You have that power to do so Brock.

I hope that one day, if I or anyone else, hears your name again, it is something better and that you have turned your life around for the better.

Until then..

One Concerned College Female.