For those of you who know me, you know that I have an older brother. If you truly know me, you know how much I love him and care about him. My brother and I aren't really on speaking terms right now, but I wanted to write him this letter to show him that I still care and that I still love him. I also think this truly shows how much this situation between us has been affecting me. It shows how much I've been hurting and shows how much I feel I'm missing out on. So brother, if you read this, you'll know I still love you even after everything. You're my brother, I won't ever give up on you.

Dear Big Brother,

It’s been a while since we’ve talked but I guess that’s what things are like when there’s a seventeen year age gap between us. I have so many questions for you, about you and your life and your family. I wish I could just ask you these questions in person but I know you’re going through something right now. I’ve been praying for you, hoping that things will get better, easier. How are you? I hope you’re doing well and I hope you’re living a life you want. It’s been some time since you’ve checked on me. That’s not very brotherly but I’m sure you still care about me. You have to, I’m your baby sister.

How’s your family? The kids are growing up, aren’t they? I see your lives in pictures but it’s hard to see how things really are through pictures on a computer screen. Are the kids getting good grades? Do they have nice friends? Are they getting involved in school, sports, or clubs? I hope they are happy and healthy. I miss them so much, just like I miss you. I miss your humor, you picking on me, and your brotherly love. I hope you still love me. You have to, right? I’m your baby sister.

I hope you’re happy and I hope you’re doing things in life that make you smile. I haven’t seen you smile in a while, but maybe that’s just because I haven’t seen you in a while. What have you been up to lately? Have you made any new friends? You always seemed to have the coolest friends and close bonds with them. I wish we still had a close bond. Do you wish we were still close too? You have to, don’t you? I’m your baby sister.

I hope that God is guiding you and carrying you through the hard times. I hope you do all things through him, I’m sure you do. You always had a strong love for him, I admire you for that. Are you still involved in your church? I hope you’re teaching your kids to do all things through Him, I’m sure you do. You take parenting seriously and I love that about you. Your kids love you so much, like you love them, like I love you. I love you so much, but right now I miss you more. I hope you miss me. Do you miss me? You have to… You should, right?

Love,

Your Baby Sister