Dear ____ ,

It's been a couple of weeks since we last talked. I wonder if you think about me sometimes like I do. It's funny how things can change in just a second. Our love and friendship just disappeared like it never happened. Honestly, I thought nothing could break us. People had their doubts, but I always learned to ignore them because I figured that everyone would obviously have their doubts after how long we'd been together.

You were my happily ever after. What I would always call you, my sunshine. You came into my life and you brightened everything up for me. I met you so unexpectedly and that's the best way to fall in love, unexpectedly. You were the person I saw myself with in ten years. We talked about living together, who's gonna be cooking breakfast and what kind of cars we would be driving, or even sending each other pictures of houses that we'd want to live in together. I don't know how that changed so fast. From you knowing that you want to be with me to not being in love with me at all.

I always loved those corny romantic movies. I would always watch it and you knew I would always cry at the end while you smiled and laughed and asked why I'm sad. I remember when you asked me why I was crying to "Amazing Spider-Man 2." I don't think we ever wasted our moments together. We would argue all night about what we wanted for dinner but we always had a good time when we figured it all out. You were always the type of guy to relax at home and I made you go out or do random things simply because it sounded cool and I wanted to make memories. After all, memories are the only things that last forever. It's funny how we started to have so many things in common, like our eating habits, the hours of naps we took in a day, the music we listened to, the shows and movies we liked, and most importantly our friends.

After all this time, if someone told me to pick out our favorite memory, I couldn't. I couldn't do it because every moment we spent together was so special to me. From taking naps together and missing our movie times, running to our cars after school in the rain, spending our birthdays together, going to the fair and getting our goldfish that lived a little longer than we expected, spending Thanksgiving and Christmas together, to us driving around town late at night with music blasting just because we wanted to. I wouldn't be able to pick anything out because every single memory was special in its own way. I wouldn't have wanted to spend it any other way with anyone else.

It sucks. It sucks not being with you now and it sucks when all of a sudden I think about you. You don't know how many times I've wanted to pick up the phone and text you or call you, but I always stop myself.

The good memories were good, my gosh, they were so good. But when things were bad, they were bad. From waiting for you to text me at night, you going to bed in the middle of our fights, never visiting me in college or just telling me how bad everything was and to you giving up on me. I always wanted you to fight for me but you never did. I wish I could forget about all of it sometimes but everything happens for a reason like I always said. I'm glad there were bad moments too because it just made the good moments even better.

I want you to know that I still love you but I also want you to know that I don't love you the way I loved you when we were together. I loved you with everything and anything and I think that was the problem. When I love someone, I love them unconditionally with everything. I loved you for everything you did right but also everything you might have done wrong. I shouldn't have poured myself into the relationship when you weren't even willing to give me half the time. I should've known that it wasn't going to work out when you stopped trying.

But I want to thank you. I want to thank you for showing me what it was like to be able to love someone with everything. I can't wait til I meet the right person one day and be able to love them the way I loved you and even more, but also get that in return, something you never did for me. Thank you for showing me that I am capable of loving someone without any limits, because of you I think I can love anyone without any conditions. Thank you for letting me go so someone else can love me. I wish I would've known earlier when you fell out of love with me so we didn't have to drag everything on. Thank you for allowing me to be free so someone else can love me the way I have never been loved. Someday, someone will thank you for this. For shattering my heart so they can help me fix it. Thank you for letting me go.

I always thought it was me that was the problem in the relationship, but I think that I'm starting to realize it wasn't all me. I deserve the good night texts and the cute good morning texts just as much anyone else. I deserve to be taken on dates and being treated like a priority. I deserve for someone to look at me like they had just won the world because that's how I felt about you. I was worth the time and effort without begging you for it. Constantly fighting for someone's attention and affection isn't the way someone should be in a relationship. I didn't deserve all the hours I spent writing you letters only for them to be stuck in your drawers. I didn't deserve all the nights when I was crying and you'd go to bed because you were too tired to deal with it. I didn't deserve for you tell me you were out of love with me over a text message. I deserved an explanation which I never got.

For the very last time, I would like to tell you I love you. Your love was so sweet when I had it. I should've known it changed when you started to look at me differently. Thank you for giving me your time for the past three and half years. I didn't want anything else from you other than your time and love. I hope one day I will be able to look at you and hear your name without my stomach dropping.

I'm finally able to start picking up the pieces and moving on. I can't wait for the next chapter in my life.

Sincerely,
The girl you should've fought for