First off, I want to say I am sorry. I am sorry for screwing up, for not being there enough for you, and also going away to college. I can't help but wonder maybe if I didn't go a hundred miles away to college maybe we would still be friends.
I honestly really do miss you and I hope that we can fix this hole that we are in and maybe start over. You are the only person who truly understood me. For the first month after you told me we weren't friends anymore, every time someone said your name I would start to tear up because all of our memories would come rushing back to me. Our ship has sailed and I do believe that we are no longer friends for a reason.
A few reminders, though, as we go our separate ways. I will always be here for you if you need me. Yes, I call someone else my best friend now but that does not mean I'v completely replaced you because there is only one you and I could never do that to you. Yes, you hurt me with that text message but I am over it now. I just hope you don't decide to walk back into my life after all of these months and pretend like we are back to being best friends. I would love to be able to call you my friend again but the best friend card has been revoked and is unable to be redeemed by you again.
I have changed in the past couple of months. I know "people don't ever change" but I did. I know I will eventually see you around and I at least hope you recognize my existence with a simple hand wave or a head nod. I miss you practically living at my house and when you weren't here, I was at your house or we were out on an adventure.
It is really weird not having your name on my phone everyday, 24/7 but it is alright. I got used to being my own best friend at times when I needed one. It is hard when you go from calling each other best friends to saying "who is that?" when someone brings you up. You are the only person I could go on a rant about literally anything and you may not have always understood but you would always go on the rant with me. I loved that.
Before I say my last words to you I want you to know I still love you more than life itself and if you ever need me, you have my number, and my address just show up. I miss calling you my best friend but everything happens for a reason, I just wish I knew what the reason for this was. Our ship has sailed and sank. I hope you find a better best friend who actually knows how to be a best friend to you. Normally, I would say this is a see you later because goodbye means forever. This is my goodbye.
