To The Absolute Love Of My Life,

There are so many things that I want to say to you - even though you are just a simple thought in my young, dreaming mind. I am only a sophomore in college, far from accomplishing all that I desire to. But, in a couple of years, I'll be taking the bar exam in law school. From there, I'm going to sign a contract with a successful firm that will offer good benefits and a satisfying salary.

After all is sorted with my career, I can only hope that I will have already met your father and he and I would be married and working on fixing an old, beat up house together... to build up our little team that we'll call our family. We - as a family - will argue, we will cry, we will laugh, we will live. Above all, please always keep in mind the following:

I Love You.

I Love You.

I Love You.

Some day, you're going to take your first few breaths while I finally get to hold you. You're gonna open your eyes and I'm gonna show you the world. Shortly after, you will speak your first few words and I'll get too excited because the words you'll say are probably going to just be little mumbles. But you'll be talking to me! "Mmeh" turns to "Mma" which will finally be "Mama." (Daddy can relax, "Dada" will come soon enough.) You will later take your first steps. All of the sudden, you'll be in pre-school. You're going to grow too fast. But it'll be okay. I'll grow with you.

I want you to know that I'm going to be here forever. You're going to do some stupid things, but it's okay. It will always be okay and I will always want you. You are my world.

Please realize that you are lovely. Darling, you are everything. You'll always be the sunrise after the rain. Boys are dumb, but they can be so wonderful. School is hard, but it's so worth it. Girls can be really mean, but you will have some incredible friends. I am only 19 at this moment, but I can tell you that everything gets better and we all grow stronger and wiser. (I'm going to be right, most of the time.)

Life is for feeling electricity. Life's for loving and laughing. But life is also filled with heartache, pain, and stress. I'm telling you now and I will keep telling you that you will heal, with time. Some say time is a thief, stealing our moments with the ones we love away from us. But time is so constant. Controlling time isn't an option. So let me show you how to do your hair and let me show you how to match your socks. Let me take care of you, because I always will.

And someday, once I learn how to myself, I will also teach you how to do your laundry.

You are EVERYTHING I've ever wanted.

I promise to always listen to you

I promise to always forgive you

I promise to always accept you

I promise to always answer your questions

I promise to always try to help you

I promise to always hold you

I promise to always dry your tears

I promise to always try to make you laugh

I promise to always love you

Oh! and I promise to name you something simple and pretty. I'll cross anything exotic and foreign off my short list.

I cannot wait to meet you.

Love, Mommy

P.S. I'm super weird so I'll most likely embarrass you more than I intend to.