To my other half,

I apologize for not being the person you thought I was. You waited so long to be with someone who you thought was a diamond, but then you realized that they were no different than any of the other pebbles in the dirt.

I apologize for getting in the way of living your life. I didn't mean any harm, I just wanted to experience everything life had to offer with you. It didn't occur to me that you just wanted to be alone.

I apologize for caring so much. I never meant to frustrate or annoy you, I just wanted you to be safe. My "nagging" never meant to come from a bad place, I just wanted what was best for you.

I apologize for boring you. I never once thought a moment with you was dull, even if we were just sitting around doing nothing. But I understand the fact that not everyone is like me. I'm sorry for the lack of excitement I brought into your life.

I apologize for making you think I didn't accept you. I did accept you. I accepted your flaws, your perfections, and I loved everything about them. I rejected some of your unwise decisions because I know what you're worth.

I apologize for being so hard to love back. I know that I'm a difficult person, but I want you to know that my standards weren't meant to be unreachable. I never wanted or demanded gifts or surprises, I just wanted someone to feel the same way I felt about them. I just wanted honesty. I just wanted you to care.

I apologize for assuming you wanted the same things. These "things" are the thoughts that haunt me the most. These "things" are the hopes and dreams I would pray for every night. I thought we were alike. I thought you understood. I thought you wanted a life together filled with the happiness between two people, something that neither of us have ever seen or experienced. I thought you wanted forever.

I apologize for being the reason why you regret your life. I never intended to ruin anything for you. If anything, I wanted to make your life better, but I apparently failed you.

I hope one day you can appreciate the gift of having someone who truly cares about you since you have so many people that do. I hope you figure out what is missing in your life. I hope you find your happiness, with or without me.

Sincerely,

Your jaded other half