I am not a writer.
I am not someone that enjoys sharing all of my secrets.
I am not the person that I want to be.
In school, I wasn't a perfect friend. I went through some hard times and didn't always react the way I should have.
I made some mistakes and did some really bad things.
I was constantly changing because I didn't know myself. I didn't know who I wanted to be.
I wish I could go back and change things. I wish I could go back and fix problems I let slide. I wish I could go back and make myself a better person at a younger age.
I hurt so many people because other people hurt me.
I wasn't a bully, but I wasn't always a good friend.
I regret many things and don't understand why I did things the way I used to.
They say kids will be kids, and that we will mature and grow up eventually.
They never say how maturing and growing up will cause you to not think straight.
To make decisions that seem right at the time, but then 5 seconds later you realize the huge mistake you made.
They don't tell you how hard it will be to look back at your life.
They don't tell you how hard it is to turn your life around.
Even good people have things they wish they could change. Even the worst people can still find something good in their life.
Looking back, I really wish that I could say I was sorry to certain people.
To the people that changed my life, and then disappeared from my life because of one stupid thing.
To the people that made me who I am today as I took them for granted.
I just wish I could say, I'm sorry.
I am so, so sorry.