I’ve sat in front of my lap top all week trying to figure out what I was going to write about.
Today I got up to at 6 a.m. I woke up with a migraine and feeling under rested thinking wow another painful day. My fiancé turned the news on so we can hear what’s going on in our America before we leave the house. We heard about the shooting in Dallas, Texas. As I was listening to the news media I thought to myself what, did this really happen and the other part of me said take what I hear with a grain of salt. Because most of time I feel it’s all scare tactics, keep Americans in fear mode.
As I was working I didn’t hear a thing from any one I was surrounded by today and I can’t believe not one person that passed by me today said a word about the events that had occurred. I work with the public on an everyday basis except Sunday's. Could it be the selfishness of one being totally obsessed with purchasing everything for their businesses or is it just selfishness because we are into ourselves? Whichever it is; it’s pretty sad not to hear one human being talk about the incident whether it was ok for them or they were appalled. I’m not only talking about Texas but also Minnesota, Louisiana, Los Angeles and all other cities in the United States.
I come from a huge family that is so diverse. Hearing and seeing the events just made my stomach turn upside down. I am so upset about the Black white issue America is facing. I have Indian, White, Mexican, Black, Guatemalan, Italian and of course American in my family. I could not imagine any of us being hurt because if the color of our skin. I was raised seeing us all as one. My aunt Chela married a black man and she had four children. My grandma married a white man and had four children. We have a mix of family members that are disabled. But growing up we did not see race, or that we are different; we are family and run the same blood in our veins.
I don’t understand how and why this is all happening across America, a land that is so diverse. I was watching 20/20 on ABC tonight and I could not stop crying, I don’t understand why and how people can hate another people because of the color of their skin. Though as I was growing up I was very insecure with my skin color; I am dark and at a young age I already knew that a lighter skin color was desired, I was in second grade when I became aware and I don’t even know why I became so self-conscious. I do remember kids calling me names because I was darker than they were so maybe this are where it all started for me. I also do remember being told that white skin color was more desired and acceptable. I don’t recall where, exactly when I was told this, but I remember being told. Wow thinking about it now, how closed minded.
I am not exactly sure why our country has become so driven by the color of our skin. I overheard the news saying “Has the black community always encountered this type of violence or is it because technology now allows us to video record and report with evidence? A video can’t lie; well to a certain extent things can be censored. I believe there has always been violence beyond necessary for black Americans and African Americans and technology has definitely played a huge role in showing the reality of what really exist beyond our ears. We are able to see it with our own eyes and those who have turned a blind eye can no longer do that. A country that was once highly respected for beauty is now being viewed as ominous and causing people to second guess coming to America for a better life or even vacation in certain states.
We all make America turn, we all have different views, but no one has the right to kill, physically abuse or verbally abuse another human being just because the color of their skin is darker than what we have been made to believe is more acceptable.