waiting, for you to show
palms sweat, reacting to your
sudden appearance
others asleep, leaving us
alone
in the dark
a long time to be silent
a way to talk small
how can i keep this going?
this is new to me
too different
why?
why did i agree to
this?
a night unplanned.
too unplanned for me
the black seeps in,
closing in on us,
the walls too close for
my comfort
the moment where lips
should lock, but won’t
maybe later
uncertainty
for what you want from me
i give nothing, but there’s
nothing to lose
a fight already lost,
but for what?
one night
torn between the consistency
once sought, yet never found
giving in,
or perhaps,
this is what i wanted
you’ll never know
you’ll never need
to know
this will last longer
unannounced to me,
but what you wanted
sure
continue with the night
no questions asked
alone together
for many more hours
longer,
a night much longer
i just go along