waiting, for you to show

palms sweat, reacting to your

sudden appearance

others asleep, leaving us

alone

in the dark

a long time to be silent

a way to talk small

how can i keep this going?

this is new to me

too different

why?

why did i agree to

this?

a night unplanned.

too unplanned for me

the black seeps in,

closing in on us,

the walls too close for

my comfort

the moment where lips

should lock, but won’t

maybe later

uncertainty

for what you want from me

i give nothing, but there’s

nothing to lose

a fight already lost,

but for what?

one night

torn between the consistency

once sought, yet never found

giving in,

or perhaps,

this is what i wanted

you’ll never know

you’ll never need

to know

this will last longer

unannounced to me,

but what you wanted

sure

continue with the night

no questions asked

alone together

for many more hours

longer,

a night much longer

i just go along