Words well up inside my mind like a tornado ready to destroy its surroundings. These words are ones I wish to tell you but never have the courage to. They sit in my mind in an unlocked drawer, hidden away from my conscious, hidden away from my heart, hidden away from you. The words drive me mad, rattling the box, wishing to escape. But, I've never let them win, they shall never get the key. If I had the courage to utter them off my tongue, they would sound something like this:
Your smile lights up any room you are in. Cliche, I know, but it is just the truth. There are moments where you grin, nonchalantly when no one is looking, that forms small dimples on the sides of your mouth and your eyes scrunch up on the end. These moments take my breath away.
Your manners are impeccable. Your mother raised you right. Now a days, you do not meet many men who know how to treat a lady, but you sure do. You hold doors, pick women up rather than meet them and you prefer to talk on the phone or in person rather than text.
You have a wonderful sense of humor. There are times when your jokes may be a tad bit far fetched, but you are funny nonetheless. I laugh at your jokes, but I mostly laugh at your small giggle that accompanies your jokes. You think you're funny which is a confidence I love.
You give the best hugs. You remind me of Olaf, the snowman from "Frozen," always giving the warmest hugs. Whether it is a hug for a sad or happy moment, your arms are always waiting wide open.
You are the sweetest person I have ever met. I wish you truly saw what I see in you. The way you care for others more than yourself, the way you are always there, your work ethic, you in general. I wish you knew how truly wonderful you are.
Often times, you talk down on yourself and you confide in me, wishing that you were more attractive or a better person. But if you only saw what I see in you, you would never feel down on yourself again. Of course, I am aware that it is quite impossible to see what others see and believe what others say about you, but for one moment believe that it is true. Believe that you are wonderful. Believe that you have a bright future ahead of you. Believe that you are always going to be one of the most attractive individuals in the room. Believe that your personality is a dime a dozen. Believe that you are perfect just the way you are.
These words well up inside my head, refusing to overstep my boundaries. But if you had one day to see yourself through my eyes, I think you would fall as in love with yourself as I am with you.