This goes out to all people who have experienced abuse in their lives. You are beautiful. You didn't do anything wrong. It's not your fault. You aren't weak. You are worth so much more than how you've been treated. Whatever your abuser did to you, you didn't deserve it. Your abuser is wrong in what they've done to you. No one deserves to be treated the way you have been treated. You are amazing. Don't blame yourself.
Your opinions matter. Your morals matter. Your boundaries matter. You have valid reasons to think the way you do, and you are your own person. Your abuser does not define you. You define you. You get to chose what you believe in, what your standards are, and you get to chose which people you like. Making your own decisions is not a privilege, it's a basic human right.
Your abuser might have told you that you have no one, but it isn't true. You have so many people who will understand and be there for you. They might have told you that you can't tell anyone what they've done to you, or you believe you have no one to help. Do not think for one second there isn't anyone out there who will show compassion. There are family, friends, and even strangers who will listen to you and encourage the decisions you make. Try to not be afraid of talking to someone.
You might be afraid of being alone. You might be afraid you will never find anyone else. You might be afraid that no one will want you after what has happened. None of that is remotely true. Life brings great opportunities. You will meet many new people and have so much more freedom, you won't know what to do with yourself. Don't let your love take you away from your own life. It's hard to do, and it might take a long time, but don't fear being independent.
Always remember that you aren't worthless. You shouldn't have someone run your life for you. You should be able to make your own decisions, go places you want to go, be friends with who you want to be friends with, and most definitely you should not be coerced into doing things you don't want to do or forced to things you don't want to do. Believe in yourself and the hope that people around you will help you and support you through whatever you're going through.