Everyone has something that they wish they could say, or could have said. But we go with our better judgement and decide we are better off not doing it. But, honestly? I'm so tired of sitting back and being the bigger person. I'm tired of being called racist, and stupid. So here it goes.

In high school, I really wish I would have told all the people that I barley tolerated, that I hated them. I also wish I could have publicly announced that I was surrounded by idiots in most of my classes that I truly enjoyed. Also, sometimes, when people copied off me, I'd put the wrong answers and then when they turned it in, I would put the right answers. So, ha. Suck on that. I honestly wanted to take that microphone at graduation and call everyone out. The fake people. I also wanted to tell everyone how much I secretly didn't like them, but I put up with them.

I want to tell all the bullies in my life how much they ruined me. I want to tell them how I felt and how I hope that in some point in their life, they have regret for being the person they were to me.

If I could, I would tell the girl who pissed me off the most, because she thought she was better than me, I would tell her that she isn't hot shit. (Sorry. But the vulgar words help express my anger.) You thought I would get knocked up before I graduate, said I couldn't get into the school I wanted to, and I probably won't become a lawyer. Well, how do you feel now? I didn't get knocked up, AND, I'm in the school you said I couldn't get in. Also, I'm a triple major here. So you really didn't drag me down. You pushed me further. Everything you said to me didn't slow me down.

I wish I could tell the man who caused the first accident how he ruined my life. I want to tell him how he turned me into somebody who was happy and outgoing into a ball of stress, anxiety and self-loathing. I want to tell him that he killed who I was.

I wish I could somehow explain to people my mental illnesses without being looked at as over-dramatic, or sensitive. And I wish that they could understand that it is not my fault I am this way.

I wish I would have told him how I felt before he left me. Never to speak to me again.

I want to be able to speak freely about my political beliefs without being scared of being made fun of, and getting called rude and unnecessary names. I want to be able to voice who I voted for without being looked at as a "non-conformist" and being called an idiot who doesn't know what she's talking about. I wish I could fight people tooth and nail, about what I believe in, but I'm outnumbered and it's easier to sit back and act like none of it bothers you, even if it's wrong.

I wish I could yell at people who call me a racist or homophobic because I'm Christian. I want to yell at them and tell them how dumb they are for assuming who I am based on my religious belief. I want to yell at them because practicing anything but Christianity is okay, but then they look down on those who practice my religion. Because freedom of religion is okay, unless it's mine.

That guy who called me racist for watching the inauguration? I really wish I could have fought him because he had no right to call me that. I was being a responsible citizen and watching what the president had to say. I was watching it because it was a part of my homework. And I'm not racist. Anyone who truly knows me, should know that. I love everyone and I accept them for who they are. If I don't like you, it's not because of your skin color, your religion or sexual orientation. It's because you did something to me to make me not like you. I don't care who you are, if you treat me nice, I'll treat you the same.

I'm tired of sitting back and just letting people say and do these things to me, all because they don't expect me to fight back, they didn't expect me to hate them, because I'm a nice person. Well, surprise. I'm not. I hold back a lot for the sake of other's feelings and I wish society would adopt that. Because I am so tired of having to sit back and take crap, all because I am doing what's right.