To me, it’s weird to think that there are people who meant the world to me a year ago that are now nothing but a passing thought or a stranger in a crowd and some of the people who mean the most to me now didn’t even know I existed a year ago. It is so weird that, yesterday I met someone I won’t ever see again, and today I stopped talking to someone I saw every day.
We often say that people are temporary, and I use to brush that statement off my shoulder, until I started getting older and I truly realized how temporary people really are. It has made me become a more closed off and very reserved person.
In high school, I had a best friend one year, and the next she was a complete stranger, we couldn’t even tell each other what was happening in our lives because we didn’t talk. It was like one day she was my best friend, someone who knew my deepest, darkest secrets, someone I was with every day, someone I could count on, and then the next year, she was just a stranger who knew all my secrets. It was sad to drift apart, but there was nothing either of us could do, we weren’t the same people as before.
I met a boy, he became someone I talked too daily, someone who put a constant smile on my face, someone who made me happy. I wanted him to stay in my life forever because I felt comfortable around him. But one day, we just stopped talking. He stopped replying to my texts, I ignored his calls, we just stopped talking. To this day, I don’t know what happened with us, or why we were so close and then it was like I didn’t even know him. I like to think it’s because we both became busy with our lives and just grew apart. I like to think nothing bad happened, but because of how sudden it was, I’ll never know for sure.
People have asked why I haven’t made an effort to talk to these people that have exited my life. I reply with the same thing, well why haven’t they made an effort to talk to me? I can’t fight for anyone to be in my life, and I sure can’t fight to be in theirs. Of course I miss them, but even if we were to talk now, everything would be different because we are just different people.
Don’t get me wrong, those people leaving wasn’t a total loss, we all grew up, our interests changed and we met new people. I feel as though all the people that I don’t talk too anymore are all doing fine. I mean we all seem pretty happy.
I was always so against people leaving, but now I know it’s bound to happen, I am still young. There are people out there that are going to have a way bigger impact on my life then the ones now.
That is why I am okay with people leaving, I am okay with losing people. Yes it hurts, and it’s sad. But its life.
So next time someone leaves, or someone goes. Just remember, some people are so temporary, try not to hurt when they go.