Life is full of choices. From choosing what you want to wear to school to choosing where you want to go to college. Choices and actions define who we are and what our personalities may be. Every day we make choices that take us down different paths. Shouldn't figuring out the big details of life be easy since we are so used to choosing all of the time?
Technically, yes it should be easy.
But it's not.
For those who have it all figured out before even graduating high school, you're lucky.
For those who feel that maybe their lives aren't going anywhere particular and you're just going through the motions, I have been there and it will be okay.
There was a time in my life where I would ask myself, "What is the point of all of this?"
I would try so hard to act like I had it all figured out. I tried so hard to fit in because I felt that would help me find my purpose or what I wanted to do with my life.
Eventually, I finally felt that sudden scare saying, "Wait, what do I actually want to do?"
I felt lost. Everyone had these big plans. Emails and letters from colleges came in left and right. One day I wanted to be a Marine Biologist, the next, a cosmetologist.
There were so many directions to go and I felt that I had to go the way everyone else was going.
I took the ACT, I toured schools, I applied to them, and I got into them.
I was all set.
Or at least I thought I was.
Deep down there was still something that I felt was bigger for me. I couldn't really see myself staying in a dorm for four years. I couldn't see myself majoring in business. I felt lost again and as if I was following everyone else and not what my heart wanted.
But what did I want? I thought I was all set with plans for life.
Clearly, I wasn't.
Eventually, I found my way and I found what truly made me happy and it all makes sense to me now.
I think that the best thing you can do if you feel lost or alone is to follow what your heart really wants. Don't do what everyone else says you should do. This life is too short to not follow your dreams.
I have found that trying so hard to figure out what your future holds just makes it even harder. You are not alone in this. Everything happens for a reason.
God had bigger plans for me to meet James- not to go to a four-year school.
God has plans for you too. It all works out in the end, I promise you this.
To those who feel lost, there will be an end to this feeling.
One day you will be somewhere and it will hit you that you were destined to be where you are. It will all add up.
For me, this was prominent in the moment I lost my grandmother last August. I was there for it all. After it happened, I woke up in the middle of the night realizing that if I would have gone to a four-year school, I wouldn't have been there to say my goodbyes to her. I wouldn't have been able to comfort my mom. It all made sense to me then.
For those who feel lost, everything will figure itself out. Follow your heart- not the crowds. Someday you will look back at everything that seemed so big at the time and realize that it was only a minuscule point in your life.
There are bigger and better things to come for you. That darkness and loneliness is only temporary. God has a plan for us all and the best thing to do is to let Him lead the way to your true purpose in life.