A is for Always.

You were always getting better. You were always making promises you couldn't keep. You were always unpredictable. I was always trying to stay hopeful. I was always let down. I was always blaming myself.

D is for Disease.

Addiction is a disease. I tried not to blame you. You were sick and I tried to understand. A deathly disease you brought on yourself- it was always hard to understand.

D is for Depression.

You were depressed and you fell. You fell and you became depressed. A never ending cycle. You fell and we fell into the abyss of depression and we all felt the pain.

I is for I love you.

I loved you when you were sober. I loved you when you weren't. I loved you when you were getting help. I loved you when help wasn't even crossing your mind. I loved you even when I was sure you loved getting high more than you loved me.

C is for Childhood.

Your choices, your disease, your mistakes... took mine away. I knew too much too early; I dealt with so much and you all tried to hide it but you just couldn't. I grew up because I wanted you to; I begged you to grow up and move past but it was your biggest struggle.

T is for Trying.

I know you were trying; I know you were fighting. I was trying to understand; I was trying to cope. Addiction will always be a trying process for everyone affected.