I've recently found myself playing on the edge of a toxic situation: not accepting my body for its current state.
Recently, I've lost weight and many of my clothes no longer fit. At first, instead of cleaning out my closet and buying new, I found myself saying, "Just keep the same clothes so you have them if you gain the weight back."
I stopped myself. This is not okay. I've never been one to have low self-esteem, so why was I treating myself like this? I immediately bagged up all the clothes that were too big, got rid of them and went to the mall to buy shorts that wouldn't fall right off my waist.
I realized that no matter my size, I have to accept my body at all of its stages. I think people forget the amazing things our bodies do for us. They keep our hearts beating and put air in our lungs, all while many are sitting around thinking about all the things they hate about it.
If you lose weight, get rid of the clothes that no longer fit. If you gain weight, don't keep clothes around that don't fit you. Don't tell yourself that you will lose weight eventually to fit into them. That is not healthy. Accept your amazing body for how it is right now. Your favorite jeans became too small? Head to the mall and buy new ones that make you feel just as amazing.
The number on the size tag of your clothes is not what matters. What matters is that you are healthy. We cannot sit around and dream of things we wish were different. Instead, learn to accept your body the way it is. I cannot tell you how many times I have seen people not buy a pair of jeans because it was a size bigger than what they are used to. That is not being fair to your body. Buy what fits, looks great and most importantly, makes you feel great. The size on the tag is the absolute last thing you should worry about.
Catch yourself like I did before you fall off that toxic cliff. Before we can love and support others, we must first love and support ourselves. Love the skin and the pair of jeans you're in, no matter what size you're wearing that day.