I've spent the last year of my life embracing so many new changes that started to happen. From starting a new school to new relationship and friendships, this year has been filled with so many highs and lows. But the way I look at It is that you can't have the ups without the downs, and each new experience, whether positive or negative teaches you a very important lesson.
By far one of the hardest lessons I've learned this year is simply that my heart is much different than a lot of the other people I've met. I see the good in everything, and I'm always trying to find a way to help someone or "fix" them, but this truly becomes exhausting for myself, and people need to figure out how to help themselves on their own.
I've learned that not everyone will be able to love you the same way that you love them. This is the most heartbreaking lesson, but truly once you come to terms with this life just becomes that much easier. It's like a breath of fresh air, realizing it's not your fault, it's simply just the other person is not capable of the love that you are. And that's okay, every person in the world is different and different people love in different ways, but this difference is crucial and can sometimes become a problem in a relationship. Acknowledge it and work on It the best you can, but sometimes, It just might not work out. And that's okay too.
I've learned that people go their separate ways for whatever reason, and again, that's okay. It may hurt for a while because you miss this person being around but the best thing you can do is just root for them from the sidelines. Hope that life is treating them well and let them know that you'll always be there for them no matter what. Holding grudges only beings unnecessary negative feelings. Just know that they're on their own journey, just like you.
Life has this funny way of bringing certain people back to you when you need them the most, but also the opposite. Try to remember if someone is removed from your life, there is a good reason for this, and if they come back, be sure that there was a reason for this as well.
Lastly, do what's best for you, always. I know it's hard not pleasing everyone, but no matter what the choices you make will probably always end up bothering at least one person, but what truly matters is your happiness and your health. Take advice and listen, but ultimately don't let another person influence you.
I don't regret a single part of this past year, and all I can do is look forward to what the new year will bring. 2019, I'm ready for you.
