Things ended really complicated, and I'm sorry about that.
I'm sorry that I wasn't the person that you thought I was, I'm sorry that I let you down, I knew I was really messed up and I placed that burden upon you and I'm sorry for that. You mean a lot to me, but I understand that you can't be in my life because somehow, they're still feeling that linger between our hearts. You gave me everything a girl can ask for, an experience that always will be on my mind.
A woman could not want more, and sorry for taking it for granted.
You gave me the summer of a lifetime and I'm so grateful for that and I'm so grateful that you have been so mature in our ending and in me wanting to be friends but knowing that that's not good for me. Making painful decisions in order to make sure that I'm okay, I miss you I truly do because you were one of my best friends and I'm sorry that things didn't work out and I hope that one day you can forgive me. Right now I don't think I can even forgive myself, I know that I messed up and I hurt you and somehow you knew about everything and you never let on that you did.
You kept your mouth shut and kept a smile on your face and I don't how you did it because you are so much braver than I am.
You let me back into your life multiple times knowing that you would get hurt and honestly I never intended to hurt you, you're the one person I never wanted to hurt but the one I hurt the most. There's so much that it didn't work out, plans we made that we'll never see through but I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I was a shitty person and that I couldn't see what was right in front of me. I know it all worked out for the best and I have found someone who is wonderful and loves me more than anything. Yet at the time I needed to see that you also looked at me with stars in your eyes.
I needed to see what was staring back at me and I didn't.
I saw the time passing us by as I was getting closer to leaving but I never saw anything serious looking at you now I know that I've made a grave mistake by taking advantage of that time and not taking it seriously and I'm so sorry that I'm not the woman that you should've fallen for. I was just too destructive and you were a good man and you still are and that's what I hate. No matter what I put you through you are always a good person you are always there to catch me when I fall and I hate that about you because I wish I could be that good of a person. End of the day I'm not.
I'll never be a good person like you are and I'm sorry again and again because I messed up one of the greatest things that I could've had, one of the greatest friendships that could've shaped my life and maybe, I would've made better choices if you were in my life but I didn't and it's all my fault.
When is I'm sorry and I hope that you can find someone who actually cares as much as you do I'm someone who will cherish you like I didn't.
