Lindsey,
Did you realize you tend to self-sabotage? Things in your life can be going perfectly, but you always tend to ruin it in a big way. Why do you do this? What's the point?
You need to do better. Be better. Make sure you are doing what you're supposed to. It's not just yourself that you're ruining.
Think about your mom and dad, and how much they sacrifice for you every day. Don't you realize how much of a slap in the face it is when you do things like this? Look at yourself in the mirror. You weren't raised to be this way.
Why ruin the good life your parents worked so hard to set up for you? Probably the worst part about any downfall is seeing their angry or disappointed faces. They only want what's best for you, and yet here you are sticking your foot in it.
It's like being a good person is too boring sometimes, and you just have to rebel, even if only for a moment. But there are consequences, and now you have to deal with the aftermath of your poor decision making.
So, tell me, was it worth it? Did you get the cheap thrill you were looking for?
No?
So, change it.
Don't be your own worst enemy anymore. Make smarter decisions. Think about what will happen after you go through with something, before you do it. Be responsible. Don't ruin your parents' trust in you. Family is the most important thing in your life, so don't continue to mess it up.
Think about your future, Lindsey. You have so much to look forward to. What are you doing? Is this some kind of subconscious downward spiral? Maybe you need help. Maybe you just need to think before you act.
Don't ruin your life before it even begins.
Reflect.
Repent.
Learn from your mistakes.
Be better,
Lindsey