Hey dad, I thought I'd write you a letter. I don't know if you'll get it or not but I guess it's worth a shot.

So here we go.
I have been wondering where you have gone for the past 13 years.
You made excuses, but now that I'm older and simply not as naive I realized something.
You ditched me for the girls and the parties and the pills.
And it hurts to admit sometimes that my own father didn't want me.
It makes me curious as to how anyone else could want me either.
I have been searching for the love that I lacked from you in so many places.
I have been to hell and back trying to find something to take away the pain.
But God, there is nothing strong enough to fill the void that you left.
There is a hole in my heart.
Dad, why didn't you want me?
Mom stepped up and gave it her all and you just left.
I am so sorry for being a burden in your life.
I think it's been a year since we last talked.
You told me, for the millionth time, that you were going to change.
And that you were coming back and you were going to be in my life.
But I never heard from you after that, dad.
So I wanted to tell you not to call again.
Do not spit out lies saying that you love me anymore.
I can only be manipulated so many times.
And for gods sake, dad, don't tell me you're coming back when you are drunk and high on God knows what.
You won't remember this conversation by the time morning comes.
I know that you won't be back.
But I am strong enough to fill the void on my own, I will not turn to alcohol or drugs like you did, dad.
Thank you for showing me everything that I don't want to be.
Sincerely,
The daughter that you've never had the privilege of having.