So many things will come up in your life that you won't expect. That boy you thought you would end up with, he's back with his ex. You're best friend of 6 years ditched you because his girlfriend didn't like you. You'll fail a lot of tests, especially in your college chemistry class. People will say awful things about you that will stay with you for a while.
DO NOT give up. A grade doesn't determine your self worth and neither does the boy you think is the sun and the moon. You are worth so much more than that. High school will be difficult, your depression and anxiety will be through the roof. Hold out for college. There you will be with the people you love the most. You'll get the proper mental health treatment, make a few friends, and maybe even join a sorority. You'll wear the clothes that make you feel confident, finally dye your hair bright purple like you always wanted, learn what truly makes you happy. Getting away from home is what you need, even if it is scary, in order to realize that home is where you always wanted to be.
Life is difficult. So many things will make you want to to throw it all away. But wait, it will get better for you and you'll finally be happy with where you are.
April 22, 2020