So I recently decided to start re-watching "Grey’s Anatomy" from the very beginning. I mean even with all the drama of the last two episodes of season thirteen, I was still hardcore missing some of the old characters. So I started it over, season one episode one. When the hospital was still called Seattle Grace when Meredith was just the girl in a bar, and when there were 5 interns that I actually cared about (no offense to the interns in the most recent seasons). I wasn’t exactly sure what to expect when I started re-watching it but let me tell you, it’s a completely different experience than when I watched it the first time.

1. Seeing McDreamy for the first time

Seeing baby Meredith throw baby Derek out of her house the morning after their one night stand made me want to cry already. I’m sure I speak for most people who watch Grey’s when I say, I really freaking miss McDreamy.

2. Cristina and Burke

Okay, so I never liked these two together. I mean, she worked her ass off to learn all of those surgeries so she could pretty much do Burke’s job for him since his ego was too big to tell Derek he was still having tremors, and he still leaves her at the alter. I really wanted to yell at the screen, “Save your eyebrows, Cristina! He’s not worth it.”

3. When Addison first walks into Seattle Grace

I LOVE Addison. Obviously, I hated her when I first watched it and she messed everything up with Meredith and Derek. It was still kind of annoying to watch Derek try to work things out with her again, but Addison started to grow on me after her and Derek finally ended things and I was sad to see her go. (P.S. I really wish her and Alex tried to have a real relationship.)

4. THAT ICONIC SCENE

Pick me, choose me, love me. Enough said.

5. The really cool surgeries

I mean they still have cool surgeries, but nothing will compare to things like the two people skewered by the pole in that train crash, when the ambulances collided, and the ferry boat crash.

6. When people you care about start dying.

The real reason the new seasons look so different from the old seasons is because like 90% of the people from the old seasons are dead. I’m not even going to attempt to make a list.

7. When you see one of your favorite characters who has died

For me, it’s Lexie Grey. I absolutely love Lexie and she deserved so much better than to die in that plane crash. I mean her mom died of the hiccups for crying out loud. Her and Mark should have lived happily ever after!

8. Re-watching the big episodes

You know what episodes I mean. The shooting, the plane crash, Meredith almost drowning, George getting hit by a bus, Derek’s death, etc. I’ve seen them already but I’m still just as glued to the screen as I was when I first watched it.

9. Coming to the conclusions (again) that Shonda Rhimes is a genius

Only Shonda could keep us emotionally involved in a show for thirteen seasons while killing off pretty much every character that we love.