Unless you're one of those few people who adored high school, we all know that high school was a tough time for many different reasons. It's especially hard if you're like me and have a long list of irrational fears that run through your mind every day.
Here are just a few of the irrational fears that went through my mind while in high school.
1. Gym Class
Gym sucks in high school.
It especially sucked the one year in high school I was in a co-ed gym class.
Co-ed gym classes in high school should not be a thing.
Why do guys take gym so seriously? Is it an instinct? Do they feel like they have something to prove? I need answers here, people.
Me, being the least athletically gifted person in the world, was always afraid of being yelled at by other, competitive students for not helping win whatever stupid game we were playing. Of course, this fear of being scolded did not stop be from, well, not trying my absolute hardest in gym class.
Running on the track during gym also made me nervous. Why? Well, because I did not want people to hear me breathing so hard.
What? Why did I care so much? I couldn't tell you.
Then, there's the stress of not having enough time to change after gym. Nothing was scarier when the bell rang and you were still half naked in the locker room and you realized you only had four minutes to get your clothes on and make it to your next class.
2. Reading Aloud
I hated having to read out loud in school. I sucked at it. Not only did I hate having any attention on me at all, but my speech impediment did me no favors in the art of reading aloud.
I feared those stupid games like "Popcorn" when one person would read a little and then call on someone else to read. I hated this game for several reasons. One, I hated the suspense of never knowing when it was going to be my turn to read; I used to frantically look over the upcoming paragraphs in preparation.
I also hated the stress of deciding who you were going to pick after you were finished reading. I never wanted to pick someone I wasn't friends with, because I didn't want that person to think I was obsessed with them or anything. But, if all my friends in the class had already read, well, I was screwed.
3. Having my seat stolen
This fear was instilled in me freshman year. It was due to a girl, who shall remain nameless, constantly stealing my seat in one of my classes.
I guess it really wasn't the girl's fault entirely. She normally sat behind me, but sometimes her desk would be MIA. So, instead of finding another seat herself, she would just sit in mine, which would send me into a frenzy of panic. I would dread having to go to this class every day because I never knew if I would have to sit somewhere else. Stupid, right? I would basically sprint to this class every day so I would get there before the girl, so I could claim the seat that was rightfully mine.
4. Coughing
Yes, this fear is ridiculous. But yes, I know for a fact that I am not the only one who had it!
Nothing was worse than having a cold in high school and spending the entire day coughing in your classes. Why did this scare me, you ask? Well, I always low-key got annoyed when someone would not stop coughing; I know it wasn't their fault, but seriously, listening to someone cough for 42 minutes is not fun, and kind of gross.
So, when I was the one coughing up a lung in class, it was like I could feel the disgust and annoyance radiating off my fellow classmates. This led to me trying hard to hold in my coughs, which really just made it worse because it forced me to let out all my held in coughs into one giant, repressed, and terrifying cough at the end of the period.
5. Not having anyone in your lunch period
This fear would keep me up at night during the summer.
What if no one has lunch with me? I'll have to sit by myself! People will throw things at me!
This was so stupid, for several reasons. One being, there was no way I would have no one in my lunch period that I didn't at least kind of talk to, and even if I didn't, sitting alone really isn't the worst thing in the world. Of course, my little 15-year-old self did not know this.
6. Spontaneously vomiting
Was this just me...yes? OK.
I still have this fear. Sometimes while zoning out in class, this intense fear would hit me out of nowhere.
"What if I just threw up everywhere right now?"
I'd have to change schools, get a new name, dye my hair, grow a mustache.
This fear was most likely my stupidest one. As someone with a weak stomach and who suffers from motion sickness, I unfortunately am quite used to throwing up. I normally know right away when it's going to happen and am always able to get to a bathroom with time to spare. So, why would I be afraid of randomly puking in front of all my peers?
Because I'm crazy, that's why.
7. Getting my period
This fear wasn't as stupid as my fear of vomiting, but it was still stupid nonetheless.
As most girls probably were, I was always scared that around my time of the month I would begin my period without knowing it and bleed all over my chair. If this were to happen, I assumed my fellow classmates would go all Carrie on me and mock me until I cried.
Today, if this were to happen, I'd probably just clean up after myself and curse out anyone who tried to laugh at me.
I ain't no Carrie.
8. Falling
I tend to trip over things a lot.
So, with this said, it may make sense that I had an intense fear of falling in front of everyone at school and having everyone laugh at me for the rest of my life. I dreaded the day where I would trip over myself and tumble down the stairs, taking any poor soul who happened to be in my path down with me.
I could see it on YouTube: Daniela Takes a Tumble.
Luckily, this never happened. I guess my fear resulted in me being extra careful walking up and down the stairs.
Daniela: 1
Staircase: 0
9. Awkward hallway encounters
The four minutes between classes was the worst in high school. Mainly because the hallways were so congested.
I was always scared that I would accidentally brush hands with someone as I was walking next to them, and then that person would think I was trying to creepily hold their hand. Why I thought they would think I was actually trying to hold their hand is just another example of my deranged way of thinking.
And if you were walking behind someone and accidentally stepped on the back of their shoe, well, you might as well have punched them in the face. I could not have this happening, so I always made sure to keep a good amount of distance (as much as I physically could) between me and the person walking in front of me.
Well, there you have it. Those were just some of the ludicrous "fears" I dealt with while being a high school student. I hope at least some of these are somewhat relatable, and that those who read this don't think I'm a complete werido.