One day, everything is fine. Your life is normal. You don't think that anything "bad" could ever happen to you. You hear about people being diagnosed with tumors and cancer, but that'd never happen to you. That's what we all think until it does happen to you.
1. You're in shock for a while
Having someone inform you of a brain tumor shakes you. You never think anything like a brain tumor will ever happen to you. Then, one day out of nowhere you get the news. Someone either calls you, and that phone call changes your life forever.
2. You don't know how to feel
Some people are angry. Some people are sad. Some people are scared. Some people have all of these feelings. When you think that you're just "sick", and then you're told that you have a brain tumor, these feelings flood your body. These feelings fluctuate throughout the whole process and after as well. Laying in your bed one night, and the next night you're laying in a hospital bed leaves you with an overwhelming feeling.
3. It doesn't feel real
You try to block everything out. Every nurse coming in to check your vitals, every visitor that walks into your room, every card that you receive. All of it. You block it out because you don't want to be reminded that you actually are in the hospital.
4. You prepare for surgery or chemo
Surgery seems all fine and dandy until it comes to someone you don't know splitting your head open. All of these thoughts start to flood your mind. Those thoughts can be terrifying or positive, but these thoughts are there. You don't want hundreds of things to be flooding your mind, but it just happens.
5. After surgery
After brain surgery, everything is different. First of all, you have to re-learn a few things, such as walking or regaining balance. In some instances, learning becomes a struggle too. Your personality might change or it might not. Recovery takes a long time.
6. Going home is the best feeling ever
You'll be ecstatic. You no longer have to lay in a bed all day. You finally get to see people and your pets. You finally get to have normal food. You finally get to lay in your own bed. Going home is great.
7. Everyone comes to visit you
The people who couldn't come see you in the hospital will visit you once you're home, You'll have a bunch of food coming your way when these people visit you.
8. Life is no longer the same
You will want everything to be like it was before you were diagnosed, but it won't be. Everyone is constantly checking on you, especially if you have seizures. It might be difficult to learn now. You could've been an A student and now you're a B or C student. It's not that you aren't trying, you just don't understand things the same anymore. You might have to work ten times harder to achieve some that a peer can get without trying whatsoever.
9. The smallest accomplishments will make you happy
Whether that accomplishment is receiving a B on a test or walking for ten minutes, you will be ecstatic. As time goes on it the accomplishments get even better. Graduating school when you thought you were going to fail every class, going a year without seizures, going a day without headaches, and more. You will be happier than words can explain.
10. The anniversary of your surgery is going to put you in your feels
When the anniversary of your surgery comes around the corner, you'll look at all that you've accomplished in that time. You realize that you can still accomplish things.
Brain tumors can do weird things to you. There are some things that are impossible to describe. There are some things that don't make since. In the end, a brain tumor isn't going to change every thing in your life, but it will change some things.