What happened to the beginning?

It was so easy & fun.

You let your thoughts drag you away from something so good for you.

Now you use me to your advantage. I'm in so deep and can't find the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm stuck in the middle of this tunnel. Either end leaves me hurting. It's my own fault for not running like I normally do. This time I'm on the other side begging for a way inside someone else's heart. This is my payback for never letting anyone else in.

I can see it not working how it is right now. I think my own little sick mind needs it to be me who walks away with ease, but waiting for that to happen is just making me get more attached. I wish it could just be how it was in the beginning. It changed so fast I didn't even notice. I was so wrapped up in my own happiness for once.

It's so easy to say I am going to walk away or say I need to let it go. The second I go away he comes back better & gives me hope for what was. I am trying to remember how hard it was when I walked away from my ex, but months later I felt so much better than I felt in years. I don't want to wait this long again...

I guess I am hurting either way, but which way do I look the dumbest?

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"You're letting all your reasons live inside your head
Yeah u think it's heavy now
Yeah my love just weighs u down
Yeah you're scared that u could drown" -CC