I'm sorry if this article bores you, but it's something I should say. I'm sorry if you don't want to read it, but I need someone to. I'm sorry if my opinion means nothing to you, but it's important to me. I'm sorry if I'm in your way, but there's a reason I'm here. I'm sorry if there are flaws in this article, but it expresses my personality and everyone's lack of perfection.

I've always been one to say sorry, whether something is my fault or not. If someone accidentally hits me, I immediately apologize. I shouldn't have been there. Someone is too far for me to hold the door, another apology. I could have waited another couple of seconds. I can't make dinner with my friends, immediate apology. I shouldn't have to go to tutoring or study for that exam.

All of my apologies are out of the interest of others, and are typically over trivial matters. Saying sorry is just something I do, whether or not it is truly warranted. I guess I have become so used to thinking that others must always be put first, that I should apologize for anything and everything that inconveniences them.

By using the word sorry so much, I feel rather desensitized to it. It has little to no meaning to me, other than a polite phrase. Of course there are some times when my saying sorry is very sincere. However, it can be hard to tell. This apology is usually seen as sarcastic or irrelevant. The only way for someone to genuinely believe my sincerity is to emphasize how sorry I am, usually by being really, really, really sorry.

I have often been told that I say sorry too much, especially when something is not my fault. People tell me I need to stop apologizing and feeling bad for trivial things that are not necessarily my fault. So now I'm actually going to take this advice. I'm finally going to stop apologizing for the little things.

Not being sorry for some of these little things means putting myself first, something I haven't always been great at. Whenever I have time to myself, I usually feel as though I should be getting dinner with a friend, or driving someone around, or not listening to my music so that I can listen to what someone has to say. But not anymore. I am putting myself first. I have to focus on my own academic, mental, and physical needs, rather than the emotional well-being of total strangers.

So if you find me apologizing to you, know that now I am truly sorry. But if I'm not apologizing to you for something trivial, don't be offended. I'm just looking out for myself, but I'm sorry if that bothers you.