We all want the next year to be better. Every year we say, "Next year is my year." We expect it to get better when we don’t make any changes to ourselves, we just believe that the universe will do that for us. I want to change my soul this year. I want to be someone I haven't even seen in a long time. I changed myself completely when I lost myself in high school. Yes, everyone loves the sassy, realist side of me, but I miss the sweet and happy side I used to have as well. I mean, I still want to remain whiskey in a tea cup, but I know I can't be the only one that wants to have a different demeanor in 2017. There are many ways I want to be this next year, but I have decided to share five so I can figure out the rest on my own as the year goes on. Be the change you want to see.
1. Happy
I honestly can't tell you the last time I was truly happy. I just want to genuinely feel joy all of the time. I want people to know that I am happy from the sparkle that stays in my eyes. I don't want my sparkle to fade ever again. I want to smile for no reason, because I don't want to have to have a reason. I want to be completely content and full of joy.
2. Independent
I don’t want to have to feel like I need someone to be complete. I want to feel whole with just my one heart and soul. I don't want to be connected to anyone because I think I have to be. Independence also means that I can set myself free whenever I feel like I need to. I want to do my own thing for once, I'm sick of being a shadow.
3. Fearless
I have always been super hesitant about every move I make. I want to be that person that makes off-the-wall decisions and isn't scared to. I want to be daring. There's no need to constantly overthink every decision you make. It's exhausting. Make bold decisions - within seconds - don’t sit and ponder on them. Show the world that side of you, don’t be scared. I want to run through the fire of life fearless because I know it's life - it keeps going.
4. Different
I don’t want to be a weird different, but a changed different. Like when restaurants change the look of the menus, the food is still good, it just has a different look. I want to be completely different from the people of my hometown, from my friends in Mexico, from the world. I'm done being like other people. I want to stand up and show out. I want people to look at me and know that I am a different person. I want people to see the change in me. I want to be unlike anything they’ve ever seen.
5. Myself
I want to show the hidden side of myself that hasn’t been completely shown in years. I want that person to come back. I want to show the world that I am good enough just as myself. I want to be that happy, sassy, silly girl that I have always been just as my whole self not half of myself.
This year I want to change my soul instead of my major. I want 2017 to leave a lasting impression on my heart and everyone that comes in contact with me.
