It's been two whole months since I left home for college.

1. The walls will be painted a different color

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I don’t know how others feel, but when I come home for a break I want the house to look EXACTLY how I left it. Walls being a different color? That is a no-no. Unfortunately for me, my mom called me and told me the house got painted. The inside AND the outside. Oh, and we are getting new flooring. And the how is super clean. Like when is the house ever super clean?!

2. My dog won’t remember me

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It’s hard to put into words, but I can just tell when my dog recognizes people. For example, when my dog sees me, he wags his tail so hard that is entire lower torso shakes with it, he walks in circles around you until you lie down so he can sit on you, and he makes this little whiny noise out of his mouth that says, “WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!” But when he sees a stranger, he still gets very excited, but it’s different – there is a bit of uncertainty and A LOT more sniffing. I’m afraid that I’ll come home and be a stranger to him.

3. I’ll forget how to drive

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I mean come on. It’s been two months. I once forgot I had class Tuesday night even though I had been going for a month and a half already. I AM DOOMED. It will be like I’m fifteen again: unable to drive but I really want to drive so I drag my parents out there to take me driving and almost kill us all because I got scared of a shadow of a bird that passed over my windshield thinking it was some evil thing about to crush me.

4. Missing my roommate

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I’ve lived with this chick for two whole months. She has seen my extreme bed head, my crankiness, my overactive hyperness and everything in between. Okay, so maybe I’ll be fine not seeing her for five days at Thanksgiving break, but what about Christmas break? It’s a month long! Who is going to laugh at my insane hair flipping skills and horrendously good dance moves? Bob? (my imaginary friend, but I don’t like him very much). I guess what I’m thinking is it will just be really weird not to be sharing a room for a month with someone who I think has become one of my best friends.

5. Home won't be home

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For these past two months, I have done nothing but dream of going home. I miss everyone (and I also really want to get away from Bob). A big part of me has been unable to let go of home affecting the fun I have in college. So what if I go home, and it doesn’t feel like home anymore? I’ll know in the back of my mind that I will be back at college just after the holidays, and then I’ll be home for just two months for summer. I’m afraid college will become home and I won’t really want to go back to my real home anymore.