I don't need anyone to tell me that I worry about trivial things. I already know that. Most of the time, when my anxiety flares up, it ends up not being a big deal. I cannot help my anxiety. I cannot control when it decides to cripple me. I cannot diminish it by simply being told "don't worry about it," so don't bother. Everyone feels anxious from time to time; that is not the type of anxiety I'm referring to here.
Here are 33 ridiculous reasons I get relentless anxiety:
1. Talking about what gives me anxiety
It only makes me dwell on it more.
2. Going somewhere new
Fear of the unknown...idk
3. Traffic
4. Staying up late
If I get less than the number of hours of sleep I need, I will be so out of whack.
5. Change
6. Social media
7. Doing laundry
8. When my laundry isn't done...
Lose lose situation here. I know.
9. When someone doesn't text back
10. Not texting someone back
...even if I don't want to talk to them...
11. Crowds
They suck the energy right out of me.
12. Movie Theaters
and yet...I love them.
13. When plans change
14. Not being able to trust most people
15. The future
16. Being alone in a crowded place
17. Disappointing someone
18. Being disappointed by someone
19. When people ask me why I have anxiety about something
Believe me, if I had a choice, I wouldn't choose this.
20. Talking on the phone to someone I don't know well
21. Going to the doctor (or even worse, the dentist)
I can't write anything else about it here because I am panicking just thinking about it.
22. Feeling like I'm being annoying
23. Having a to-do list
I have one every day so...
24. Trying to shove cash back into my wallet when someone is behind me in line
25. Elevators
26. When the chef tries to throw shrimp into your mouth at Japanese restaurants
AFTER I've said no a million times.
27. Being late
28. Small talk
29. When people ask me what I'm doing with my life
30. Making any kind of decision
31. Trying to sleep
32. Not knowing what is causing the anxiety
33. Literally everything and anything
Some of these may seem silly, but I promise you, I have spent more time than I'm willing to admit stressing over these things. Writing this is almost too much for me. I think I need to go take my Zoloft now.