2017 was anything but good for me. I was hospitalized twice for mental health reasons. My grades in school dramatically decreased as my mental health decreased by the day. However, I still accomplished a lot in 2017. I graduated high school. I started college. I got a new job. I got my license and a car. I started adulting. But adulting is hard. And to be completely honest, it kicked my ass.
First of all my mom moved away to California after I graduated. I didn’t think it would take a toll on me like it did, but it did. My mom and I may not always get along but she did help me a lot. It’s weird not seeing her every day.
College is weird, man. Going to school is one thing but living there is a different thing. You’ve been used to going for 6 hours a day and then going home. With college, you’re there. You’re just on campus and you have to learn what to do with your time.
You have to manage everything yourself. You have to worry about eating, personal hygiene, studying. These are things you think that are so simple but if you don’t have the motivation to do it then you won’t.
Bills kinda suck, but I mean I don’t even pay real bills. I pay a very small amount of my car insurance, and to be honest, I am not happy with paying money that I earned. I barely earn any money anyway.
Which brings me to work. I hate working, to be honest. I hate it because I work a minimum wage job. I either barely get hours or get way too many. I put my money into gas because I deliver and go home to babysit on weekends, and my insurance. So I barely have money.
Being a college kid really is a struggle and people think, “Oh you go to college, you must be so well off.” Are you serious? Do you know how much effort it took to get here? How many college kids are using public assistance? College is not easy because you still have loans to pay. You still have to take care of yourself. You still have classes and homework and studying and exams and everything that comes with being a student.
Ahh to be honest 2017 was crazy for me. I met so many amazing people and got rid of so many toxic people. I found myself more than I ever have and I’m most comfortable with who I am now.
This review of 2017 became a good article of me complaining, but I guess that’s a good thing. Because if I didn’t have something to complain about then I wouldn’t have had a crazy year. And it might have been crazy, but it’s always interesting.
This is to 2018 and new beginnings. It’s going to be hard and full of trauma and tears and struggles but it’s also going to be fun and exciting and new and different. A new year means a new start and I’m ready to leap into this new adventure.
