Here we go again. I don't know how it got to be so late or what I've even been preoccupying myself with for the past three hours, but here I am awake again at two in the morning. On a nice night I'm still up on the phone, but not tonight my friends. It's 2 A.M. and I am stuck worrying about who knows what! But let me tell you, it isn't just at 2 A.M. when these slightly insane thoughts come streaming through my head. It's at 10 A.M when I've just left for class. It's at 5 P.M. when I'm sitting in bed instead of at the gym. They unexpectedly flow in just about anytime, anywhere. Like most people I have a handful of things I worry about and that's okay. It doesn't mean I'm crazy, in fact it's normal. I thought I would share some of mine with you.
1. Did I remember to take my birth control?
2. What if I get pregnant and am forced to give up any shot I have of getting a career?!
3. Oh phew, I did take it this morning!
3. Did I leave my straightener on when I left for class?
4. What if the entire building burns down and it's all my fault?!
5. What if I never get a job since no one seems to want to hire me?
6. I'll be broke and kicked out of my apartment for not paying rent!
7. Do I rely on others too much?
8. I will never find someone and all of my friends will!
9. Why did my professor give me a B?! I deserved at least an A-!
10. Now my G.P.A. is going to go down the toilet
11. And I'm never going to be able to raise it
12. And no one is going to hire someone with a bad G.P.A.
13. Why couldn't my parents just gotten me into modeling as a kid?!
14. Or why couldn't I have been musically talented?
15. Do my friends think I don't spend enough time with them?
16. Am I secluding myself from everyone?
17. Will I ever have a house as great as my Pinterest house is?
18. What if my kids don't have blue eyes?
19. I probably should pick up a hobby
20. What if I die in a car accident and don't get to do anything on my bucket list?
I overthink everything. It's really awful. I mean, I'm sure most people have these irrational fears too, so at least I'm not alone! Okay, now that we've run through the list I'll try to get some sleep.
